So I know it’s been a few days since 9×23 “Do You Believe in Miracles” aired. And tumblr and Facebook exploded. So did my brain. I mean, seriously. Did you guys see that? Seriously! It… it just.

No.

I know I said I was going to post my thoughts on the finale, but I cannot talk about the end. I will talk about everything else. I will say that I was so proud of Sam and so glad to see Sam caring for Dean. And I was so glad to see Dean and Sam together again and Dean dying in Sam’s arms, saying “I’m proud of us,” was just… guh. My feelings died. I swear to god.

Metatron. Metatron did not die. I am so pissed. You guys have no idea. I wanted him dead. I don’t care about any stupid “meanings” or Cas doing something good and sparing his enemy to stop the angel-on-angel violence. I don’t care. I wanted Cas to stab him in the face. I wanted him dead. Dead. Dead, I say! SOMEONE SHOULD TOTALLY JUST STAB METATRON.

And… Gadreel. *chokes* I am so unhappy. So freaking depressing. Good lord, SPN, I know you like to make us care about characters and then kill the, but REALLY. This is just getting ridiculous. You killed Gadreel, but NOT METATRON. No fair.

And what is going to happen to Cas? What is going to happen with his angel Grace? EXPLAIN, SUPERNATURAL, EXPLAIN.

Ugh. So many questions. So many worries. So many things I need to think about, but I *not* going to think about them until season 10 airs. I’ve already decided that my best course of action is to pretend that the last five seconds of “Do You Believe in Miracle” NEVER HAPPENED. IT NEVER HAPPENED GUYS.

So yeah, I will say all that. I will say that I have so many feelings. I will say that I’m dead inside. I will say that I am worried and anxious and unhappy. But those last five seconds? No. To quote Castiel, my rule is this: “We’re not supposed to talk about it,”

Okay, so everyone’s talking about last night’s backdoor pilot for the Supernatural spin-off. I figured I’d weigh in with my opinion…

Honestly? I am still undecided. It was an interesting episode–of a show that was not SPN. It did not feel like a spin-off and it certainly didn’t feel like a “backdoor pilot”. It was a pilot that basically interrupted the story of this season. If they were going to do it the way they did they really should have just given the show a real pilot. I’ve seen a lot of backdoor pilots, and they do not shove out the characters of the original show in favor of the other characters. The purpose of a backdoor pilot is the introduce views to the characters without doing an official pilot. The focus should always remain on the main characters of the original–it’s fine to have heavier focus on the spin-off characters, but they should NOT take away so much from the main cast. Especially when the main cast is only TWO CHARACTERS.

I don’t really know why this show is a spin-off. It does not feel like a spin-off. It feels like its own show that Sam and Dean Winchester happened to have cameos in. I’m honestly not sure why this was supposed to be a spin-off of the series considering the only real elements it has in common with SPN are the monsters. Nothing else.It’s an entirely different type of show with an entirely different type of premise–it’s not about monster hunters, it’s about monster gangsters. It’s not like the CW doesn’t already have television shows about monsters or groups of monsters fighting.

Which leads me to the premise of the show: not very original. I’ve seen it done before (and better). I’m not really a huge fan of these types of shows, so I didn’t think I would enjoy it. That being said, I did like the characters and probably would have loved them if they hadn’t pushed the spotlight totally away from Sam and Dean.

I’ll admit, I am still wary of the show. I’d probably be thrilled about it if it weren’t for two things: it’s a spin-off, and it’s on the CW. I hate most CW shows. (In fact–I hate them all except SPN…) And I don’t like poorly done spin-offs like this. Spin-offs should work like The Sarah Jane Adventures or Torchwood, which took existing elements of Doctor Who and expanded on them. Or (loathe as I am to mention this) like the CSI spin-offs, which took the same premise and gave it new characters in a new city with slightly different dynamics.

Supernatural Bloodlines does neither. It’s got a new premise and new characters. Like I said, the only existing thing they took from the show were the monsters.

So… I’m hopeful, but wary. I did like the characters, for the most part. I did think it was an interesting concept, even if it’s been done to death before. Maybe they can make it something new. Even if it’s the same thing I’ve seen before, I can still enjoy it. Familiarity isn’t always a bad thing. The biggest issue I have is characters and plot. It has the characters, now I’m just waiting to see if it can deliver on the plot.

I really wish they hadn’t tied it to SPN, because that seems like it’s going to (and already has, as a matter of fact) hurt the show. SPN fans don’t seem too thrilled with the backdoor pilot (taking the Winchesters out of most of the episode was a BAD MOVE, CW), but a few (myself included) are still willing to give it a chance if they decide to go forward it.

Just… I hope they tread carefully. They’re entering dangerous waters. As long as they don’t throw out over-used and boring cliches and keep the characters interesting, I am willing to watch and see how it pans out. It’s not a show I can see myself obsessing over and falling in love with like Supernatural, but it is conceivably a show that I can see myself enjoying.

So here’s to hoping they don’t sink this ship before it can sail.

I know, I know. It’s been several episodes since I made a post. I’m truly sorry. Life is really kicking me in the ass right now, what with it being finals week–0ne more final to go and I’m done!–and worrying about writing and other plans. I haven’t done a post since “#THINMAN” and that was how many episodes ago? Four? Good Lord. I’m useless.

Better late than never, I guess.

I’m just going to go through this all lightening quick since I’ve missed so much.


THE MARK OF CAIN:

I touched on this a little, but not much. I’ve already seen some fantastic fan-theories floating around on tumblr and fanpages and I really have nothing new to offer on that front. I do, however, want to talk about how worried I am about Dean. Did you guys see him in “Alex Annie Alexis Ann”? That was horrifying.

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Also, was anyone else reminded of this:

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Because I got some serious season-two-broken-and-bitter Dean vibes from that scene. As if Dean losing it because of the Mark wasn’t enough.


METATRON:

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So let’s talk about this fucker, huh? I can safely say that I hate Metatron more than Dolores Umbridge–just let that sink in for a moment. I hate him so very much. I want him to die. How can he be God-Moding!?! That’s not fair! I don’t like him getting more powerful and more douchey with each episode! SOMEONE STAB HIM IN THE FACE, PLEASE!!

Although I will say that I was very pleased with him deciding to bring back Gabriel. I have missed that wonderful, beautiful angel so much and I don’t care what capacity he was brought back in because it was awesome to see his snarky self again!

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Not to mention the lovely brotherly-bonding-ness we got from him and Cas while they were together. I swear that made my heart grow three sizes. *squee*

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Doesn’t that expression just break your hearts, guys? Gah. So perfect! I love Gabriel. Bring him back, SPN! I’m begging!!


JODI SURVIVED ANOTHER EPISODE!

*throws confetti*

I was so excited to see Jodi Mills back. I love her so much. And I’m thrilled that she survived! Plus, she got to be totally badass and motherly and wonderful and perfect and oh my god can I just please have my own Jodi Mills because she is made of Win.

Also–she has truly become a Winchester now, seriously. Emotional trauma? Check. Badass fighting skills? Check. Plaid?

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Check.

(Seriously, I think she stole Dean’s shirt. Look at that!)

Anyway. I know this is very short and I didn’t go nearly as in-depth as I’d like, but I’ve got to go. I’ll save all the analyses for when the season finale murders my soul, m’kay? Hopefully I’ll be able to post more next week because I really, really want to talk about that spin-off…


 

 

Still not dead, guys, I swear.

But seriously, sorry for the irregular posting. I keep saying I’ll get back to posting regularly and then I just never do because something comes up. *Le sigh*

Still, even though it’s late, I want to talk about “#Thinman”. (I kind of ranted a bit about this on FB until a friend basically said “It’s SPN, what did you expect?” and I had to concede their point…)

So I was super excited for Ghostfacers to be back because I love Ed and Harry and also because those two wonderful people are the longest living, recurring characters on SPN thus far. They have not died once guys. And Sam and Dean say they’re incompetent. Pfft, right.

I was all geared up for their return, fully expecting an entertaining, awesome and LIGHT HEARTED episode. Because it’s Ed and Harry and there cannot be angst in Ghostfacer-Land. It’s like… illegal or something, alright? Well the SPN writers didn’t get the memo because they fucking had to go and throw a shit-ton of angst on us, complete with a heartbreaking parallel to Sam and Dean’s current (infuriating) situation.

Come on, Supernatural, that’s just cruel. You know we love Ed and Harry because they’re funny and they bring us some much needed comic relief! You can’t just turn around and punch us in the feels like that! IT’S SO NOT RIGHT!

I will say that I loved the Thinman thing and kind of had a weird heart attack/fangirl moment when I realized that they were parodying Slender Man. (Err… is parody the right word? Probably not… Close enough.)

I hated that they ended it with them going their separate ways. Way to crush my soul, guys. Seriously. It’s not okay. It will never be okay. Why do I let this show do this to me, dammit?!

On a lighter note – Sam and Dean reminiscing about their childhood was so freaking sweet! The idea of little Sam and Dean dressed at Batman and Superman and jumping off a roof together and then Dean taking Sam to the hospital… Ugh, my heart melted. It truly did. (Though I had to grit my teeth when Dean said he was Superman ‘cos I know Superman has lots of fans and all, but I truly detest him. Batman FTW, seriously. Superman can go fuck himself. It took a lot for me not to snap at the TV for even mentioning the name. That’s how bad my – irrational – hatred for Superman goes…)

But yeah, so that’s what I thought of the episode. It was fantastic, but it crushed my soul and somehow proved that I ridiculously still have some small amount of hope that SPN hasn’t quite managed to crush yet. What is WRONG with me?

This will likely be another short post because I am technically in the middle of a midterm right at this very moment (I finished, but it’s online and I’m going back over it while I have extra time – sort of…) Anyway, Supernatural came back from hiatus last week, as you guys likely know. I thought the Olympics were never going to end, I swear.

And what an episode it was! Kevin was back! As a ghost, but he was back and that was totally okay with me because I love Kevin and I missed him so much and I just wanted to hug him and give him a high-five for how awesome he was and how he totally didn’t take shit from the Winchesters.

Also, Mrs. Tran was back and she isn’t dead and I can’t even explain the joy I felt at her being alive. Which was promptly crushed when she realized that Kevin was dead. I just… Guys, this show is just giving me a lot of feelings and I love the Trans and I don’t want Kevin to stay dead because that might hurt me in ways I can’t even explain. Kevin is just a kid – he’s younger than me for Christ’s sake! – and seeing him suffering hurts, but seeing him dead hurts even worse and I was so happy to see him back and this sentence is really long… Wow.

I absolutely loved that they let Linda kill that smarmy ass demon. God, was he annoying. All that whining about not being able to kill things. No wonder Crowley had him stuck as an intern. He was so bitchy and utterly annoying – and that’s taking into account the fact that he was a demon.

I think, though, the crowning moment of the episode was Kevin looking at Sam and Dean and telling them both to GET OVER IT. I mean, come on, guys, it’s been long enough. I know they’re hurt and pissed and bad things happened and it was awful, but bad things have happened before. They’ve fucked up and hurt each other in awful ways and betrayed each other before. It always works out.

So Sam, I know you’re pissed and guilty and hurt, and I get that, but stow your crap, okay? Dean is your brother and he loves you and he didn’t do this to hurt you or anyway, he was just doing what he does best – making reckless choices for the people he cares too much about.

And Dean, I know you’re hurting and you feel like shit (when DON’T you?), but suck it up. You’re a Winchester. Sam’s gonna be pissed for a while, but he’ll forgive you because that’s what you two do. You fucked up, but now it’s time to move on because angsting over it and wallowing in it DOES NOT HELP. Learn to let things go, man. For the good of everyone.

But yeah, that’s about all I can say right now. I loved the episode, I loved the Trans, and I cannot wait until next Tuesday because GHOSTFACERS ARE BACK! *fist pump* Yessss! Get excited guys!

Sorry for not posting like I said I was. Lots of real life trouble happened and I couldn’t sit down to write this. But that’s okay because now I have a few minutes (like, 3 of ’em) s0 let’s talk about Sam and Dean and how I wanna murder them?

I just have to say this: I’ve seen a LOT of people calling Sam ungrateful for what he said to Dean in the last episode and I’m sick of it. Guys, Sam isn’t being ungrateful to Dean! He’s being a total dick, but he’s pissed. He has a right to be. Dean fucked with the natural order (again) and this time with major consequences… (Kevin’s dead). I definitely get where Sam is coming from.

Dean lied to him and manipulated him into doing something that he KNEW Sam didn’t want. He knew how Sam felt about angels and angelic possession and did it anyway. He knew Sam was ready and more than willing to die and did it anyway. Dean was being selfish and being a jerk and Dean fucked up. Sam has a right to be pissed.

I still think he’s being a major dickhead about it, but I get why he’s so upset. I get why Dean’s upset. I hate them both and I want to punch them until they have no teeth, but they’re both wrong and both have a right to be upset with the other. If that makes sense.

So yeah. Short post, but still. Stop calling Sam ungrateful. Call him an asshole, but not ungrateful. It’s not Sam’s fault that he learned what Dean still hasn’t: how to let things go. Sam has learned that lesson (after having it pounded into him), but Dean’s too stubborn and still manages to convince himself that it’s all his responsibility and he has to fix it and save everyone.

Anyway. Off to class.

I’m not dead, I swear!

Sorry for not posting ANYTHING in so long. I planned on doing a post on the mid-season finale, but I live in the middle of Nowhere, USA so my internet isn’t the most reliable and my mom’s laptop (which I’m still using because mine is still busted) is slow and has IE 8 which is just ridiculous to try and do nearly anything on. Plus, new semester (last semester before I get my AA this May! Yay!), a car accident, and other real life things got in the way.

Though, mostly it’s because I’ve been writing for other things. Fanfiction, mainly. I’ve been working on a massive, multi-fandom crossover (yes, Supernatural most definitely is a part of it) for over a year and it’s just recently broken 200K and is not finished or really near finished. I’m scared it’ll end up being 300K or more by the time I actually finish it. And I wrote over 100K on a Hannibal/Criminal Minds crossover. Plus working on original work and trying desperately to find a job…

Plus I’ve been working on a recap/analysis/sporking/whatever the hell you want to call it for Cassandra Clare’s Mortal Instruments series on my FB. I’m thinking very seriously of creating a separate blog to do reviews and such to post it on. (Anyone interested? That’d probably help me make the decision…)

But enough excuses. I’m sorry and I’m back.

Since I’ve been absent so long it’s probably a good time to talk a little about the last few episodes that I haven’t mentioned yet…

Most important order of business:

THEY FUCKING KILLED KEVIN.

And it broke me and I cried and I threw things. The only small comfort I have is that Kevin was technically a Winchester. They adopted him. They have to bring him back because otherwise I’ll murder things.

Cas is an angel again (and who else totally loved him and Crowley acting like children? That was sort of awesome…)

Crowley has never been more loved by me, seriously. Sometimes I honestly forget that he’s supposed to be evil because he’s so goddamn awesome I just want to explode.

And OH MY LUCIFER, GUYS DID YOU SEE THAT LAST EPISODE? CAIN. SERIOUSLY. CAIN. THE CAIN. AND IT WAS TIMOTHY OMUNDSON. FOR REAL.

I died.

But I’m running out of time.

I’ll post tomorrow about tonight’s episode because I’m super-excited for that. Garth is back! Yay!

And now please enjoy this photo of Timothy Omundson as Cain. Because holy fuck, just look at him.

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