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It’s been too long since my last post (sorry! Getting prepared for Finals and Thanksgiving and all that…) but I haven’t forgotten this.

Since several episodes have passed since my last post I think now is as good a time as any for me to take a step back and just give you guys my opinion of the season thus far.

I was looking forward to season 9 since before the final episode of season 8 finished airing. I waited impatiently for months for the premier of season 9, expecting and pretty much demanding an epic season 9.

And I was not, at first, disappointed. The season 9 premier? One of my newest favorite episodes. It had Cas being confused and Dean being angsty and somewhat hypocritical and it had Sam treading that line between wanting to go on and wanting to just finally have peace. It had Ezekiel, who I really, really love and everyone was fantastic.

The next episode was… good. It was really good. Especially Dean’s scene with Abaddon and Kevin and Crowley together? God was that wonderful. It wouldn’t make my top 10 or anything, but I enjoyed it.

As for the next slew of episodes? They were good too. Nothing was bad about them and there were some really kick-ass moments all around for everyone, but I really started to feel a bit underwhelmed. It’s not that I don’t like season 9, it’s just that, so far, season 8 was better and that’s even taking *twitch* Amelia *twitch* into consideration.

I do have some specific issues, mostly with the two episodes “Dog Dean Afternoon” (9×05) and “Slumber Party” (9×04).

I’m gonna start withy 9×05 because I had less issues with it.

This was the fifth episode of the season and the fifth episode in a row in which Sam was either nearly killed or knocked out. Episode one we had Sam in a coma and dying, which worked fine because I totally get the trials having a nasty effect on him. Episode we had Sam getting knocked out by a bunch of demons. Fair enough; there were three or four demons and Sam was still in “recovery” mode for the most part. Episode three we had Sam getting knocked out by the April and then Cas died and Zeke brought him back. Episode four we had Sam get whammied by the Wicked Witch and Charlie was killed and brought back. Episode five we had Sam attacked by the shape-shifter-ish guy and nearly killed and then saved (again) by Zeke.

At which point I ripped at my hair and screamed: SAM IS NOT THIS BAD AT HUNTING. He’s actually supposed to be good at hunting. Why the flying fuck is he getting batted around and knocked out all the time lately? We get it! Zeke is possessing Sam and so can save him in a time of need. Please stop smashing us over the head with that already. Zeke already said Sam’s healing pretty well, so there’s really no point to the bashing Sam’s been taking. He’s a good hunter, guys. Better than this, certainly. So stop it.

Other than that minor(ish) point, however, the episode was fantastic and I laughed ’til there were tears in my eyes. I miss the Colonel. I want him to come back just because he was totally awesome.

Now… onto “Slumber Party”

*deep breath*

Guys, I liked this episode. It was okay. It was good, even. I wanted to love it. I mean, come on, it’s the Wizard of Oz! It’s Dorothy and the Men of Letters and the Wicked Witch and everything! Flying Monkeys! Oz! I honestly did not expect anything less than epic.

I was sorely disappointed.

The episode was just… not great. Again, good, but just… so flat compared to the epicness I expected (and that something like this deserved). I just don’t feel like it was treated right. It was weirdly random and off-point. The Wicked Witch? Yeah, not scary. The whole “being trapped together” thing and the way the Witch and Dorothy were set free? Contrived, bordering on stupid.

The key to Oz? Where did that even come from? It felt so random.

I did like the concept and the Witch taking over Sam and Dean was really cool (not to mention that garage! All those drool worthy cars…). Charlie is always a welcome character and I was glad she got to kick butt again…

But then there’s the whole Witch-Killing-Charlie thing that served no purpose and just felt like forced drama. I mean, really, if you’re going to just bring her back, there’s NO POINT in killing her off. None. It was stupid. Not to mention it was the second episode in a row to kill a character and bring them back. It might not have bothered me so much had we not just had Zeke resurrect Castiel in the episode directly prior to it.

And then there’s Dorothy…

First, I love the idea of Dorothy being a Hunter and her father a Man of Letters and the idea that the books were written to tell her story (and were slight biased, explaining the misinformation). I really adored the idea of kick-ass Dorothy killing witches and fighting the good fight in Oz.

Except… Dorothy didn’t do a whole lot of kicking ass. In fact, she didn’t do really much at all except talk. Her fight with Sam and Dean while they were under the spell was pathetic and that was her chance to really shine and show how badass she could be and she just… stood there. I mean, come on, Dorothy, stop posing in the fighting-stance and kick some Winchester ass! That’s what I wanted to see and I was so upset that it didn’t happen.

Honestly, the episode was just… mediocre and sort of meandering and weird. Still good, but too flawed for something I wanted to be epic.

There was one cool thing about the episode though. Charlie admitting she’d been hunting and her realization that it wasn’t magical – because it isn’t and I loved her wanting it to be. But that’s okay, because she went to Oz with Dorothy and they’re totally going to get married by Glenda in Munchkin Land and it’ll be spectacular!

My issues with the Oz episode aside, this season has been really good so far. Really good. Fantastic and epic in some places. Plodding, but still satisfying in others. And “Heaven Can’t Wait” made up for much of the disappointment of “Slumber Party” by being amazing, intriguing and having Cas sing to a sick baby, which was adorable.

So, I know I’m a couple of days late, but you can all blame shitty internet service on that. I hate living in the middle of freakin’ nowhere.

But anyway.

Let’s talk about episode 9×03, “I’m No Angel”, shall we?

You guys all remember that article I linked to you about Shannon Lucio playing Castiel’s love interest? And how she was going to be “introduced” in the third episode? And how I was fighting not to be too judgemental because we hadn’t seen her yet?

Well… now we have. Her name is April Kelly and I have three words for Supernatural: WHAT. THE. FUCK?

Okay, let me back up.

When April first came on-screen I liked her. She was nice and endearing and I immediately got a pit in my stomach because me liking a SPN character means bad shit is going to happen.

So then April continues to be nice. She’s sweet and sort of funny and Cas likes her and she was certainly not another bitchy, condescending, flat twit like our miss Richardson was last season. I crossed my fingers and hoped for the best. I wished on every star that she’d stay that nice and they’d develop an interesting romance between the two of them, since, you know, they said they were giving Cas a LOVE INTEREST.

They fucking lied, that’s what they did.

Things started moving alarmingly fast when they end up having sex (and I cried a little because Cas finally lost his virginity and it wasn’t to Meg…) and I was sort of confused and unhappy, but not totally willing to dismiss April just yet.

And it was a sort of sweet/funny scene if I let go of my utter confusion and annoyance of how fast that happened.

Then this happens:

 I'm No Angel

April turns out to be evil, kills Cas and then is killed herself and Ezekiel brings Cas back and I’m left sitting there gaping at the television and wondering what the fuck I just saw. I actually had to look up that article about Cas again, re-read it and make sure I had the actress right.

Okay, Supernatural, you and I need to have a little talk about what a “love interest” is.

It is a character who serves as the significant other (romantic partner) of a main (or even secondary) character. Generally speaking, the relationship has to last more than a day or two and usually at least a few episodes as well.

It is NOT a character who acts nice to gain a main characters trust, has sex with them and then murders them. THAT is called a villain, SPN, and you should really have learned the difference by now. I know SPN writers are not the best at writing “romance” and I was terrified of this relationship being botched, but… really? REALLY? This is what you’re going to call a love interest?

What the fuck is messed up in their minds that they’d think it was appropriate to call April a love interest?

That being said, I applaud Supernatural for recognizing how catastrophically bad giving Castiel a love interest (especially so soon after turning him human) would be. I am glad they at least seem to have realized that it would likely have been a bad idea. Hats off to you for scaring me shitless for NOTHING. You bastards.

I’ve been discussing this quite a lot with friends recently. Mostly because I enjoy talking about the villains of my favorite fandoms (I dunno who I love more… Loki, the Joker, the Master or Lucifer… Or Hannibal. Can I have them all?). A common idea that keeps popping up, however is that Supernatural’s most infamous and evil villain is God.

Disclaimer: Please note that I am speaking ONLY of the character of God in the television series “Supernatural” and not any actual religious deity. This post in no way reflects my opinions on religion, Christianity, or God.

Let me break it down a little bit (though I’m sure some of you can already see what I’m saying):

The biggest villains in Supernatural were as follows: demons and angels.

Demons only exist because Lucifer rebelled. Lucifer rebelled because God expected him to bow to humanity, which is clearly flawed logical because angels are über awesome.

Azazel killed Samuel and Diana Campbell to get Mary to make a deal for her son. He needed her to make that deal so he could infect Sam with his demon blood and get Sam to open Lucifer’s cage twenty some-odd years later. (It was a very thorough and LONG master plan, after all.)

Lucifer broke out of his Cage because who wants to be stuck in a Cage for eternity? Lucifer used Sam to free himself because it was all part of the Plan. It was all part of the Plan because God said so.

Michael brought Adam back from the dead and used him as bait to get Dean to say yes. Dean’s a stubborn ass and Adam gets the short end of the deal. Why did Michael even WANT Dean as his vessel? BECAUSE GOD SAID SO.

God knew all along that Lucifer would rebel and what it would all lead to… yet did nothing to prevent it and let Lucifer turn Lilith into a demon, thereby cementing his fate and the fate of every other living thing. God forced Michael to cast his own brother (someone Michael clearly cared about) into Hell because of this disobedience rather than KILLING LUCIFER LIKE HE TOTALLY COULD HAVE.

God then promptly ditched the angels, leaving them to their own devices. When Sam and Dean went to him, asking for help stopping Lucifer he said it wasn’t his problem. Yet he CREATED the problem. He had enough forethought to CREATE the plan to fix it, though that plan ensured that Sam and Dean and their family never be happy or have normal, healthy lives.

When Dean was in Hell, God could have gotten him out before he broke. He’s God. He can do anything. He could’ve saved Dean. When Sam was in Hell, God could’ve gotten him out – with his soul. Again, he’s God. He can do that. Hell, when Ruby was manipulating Sam, God could’ve intervened and killed her. He could’ve stopped Lilith. He could’ve killed Lucifer. He could’ve returned to Heaven and straightened his CHILDREN up, putting an end to their “Let’s burn the entire earth” nonsense.

Really, aside from getting Sam and Dean out of that church (and repeatedly forcing Castiel to die and return to life, each time worse than the last for the poor angel) WHAT has God done to assist in cleaning up the utter mess he STARTED.

He made Lucifer. Lucifer rebelled and created demons. God created Hell and made Michael cast Lucifer into it. Lucifer got pissed, decided to destroy all of humanity to show God how wrong he was. Michael got bitter because his brother was stubborn and wouldn’t realized that “daddy knows best”. Gabriel hightailed because his family sucks. God ran away because I guess the pressure of totally being the biggest asshole ever just get to you or something.

 God not only created the problem and did very little to correct it (even though, if he had truly wanted to, he COULD HAVE), he actively avoided fixing the problem and instead decided to use two humans – thereby destroying THEIR lives as well as ruining the angels’ existence – to end the world and/or possibly save everyone.

I highly doubt Lucifer, Azazel or any of the angels or demons would’ve gone after Sam and Dean if they hadn’t KNOWN that it was all supposed to end with them on opposite sides of the final showdown between Heaven and Hell.

The argument could be made that God helped them (as the heavy implication that Chuck is God would suggest) to avoid ending the world, but he didn’t exactly do much considering he’s an all-powerful God, now did he? He could destroy everything and everyone with a thought. He could have stopped Lucifer, he could’ve stopped Michael, he could’ve stopped Raphael.

Hell, in season 6 Castiel prays for guidance on the Purgatory issue and God could’ve at the very least shown him something to let him know how dangerous and wrong the path he was on was at that time, but he didn’t. He did absolutely nothing.

And I’m not particularly fond of the “but he gave them freewill” argument either. God’s actions cannot be justified in the show with that simple statement. He had the opportunity to help, he was asked for guidance and gave none, he abandoned his children and humanity, he ruined the Winchesters’ lives and he knew it was going to happen exactly that way.

So yeah, God’s the biggest asshole in SPN.

Sorry I haven’t posted anything in a while guys! I was just a teeny bit completely distracted by NBC’s glorious Hannibal. (If you haven’t seen it, save your soul. It will do horrible, twisted things to you…) And my laptop screen is busted, plus fixing some issues with my classes next Fall and my brother graduating high school. I’ve been busy. (Who knew I had a life…)

Anyway. I want to talk about Fanfiction today, specifically, Supernatural Fanfiction.

I feel like Fanfiction gets a bit of a bad reputation, which is probably at least a bit deserved because holy mother of Lucifer, I’ve read some really horrible things in Fanfiction archives. But sometimes you want to read the bad stuff. Or at least, I do. It makes me feel better about my writing. And there are tons of good stories too, and also every now and then you’ll stumble onto something so beautiful it’ll make you cry.

So, here are my Fanfiction Dos and Don’ts for the brilliantness of the Supernatural fandom.

(Also, a brief disclaimer: these are my opinions on these matters. If you happen to love anything I say is a definite Don’t, please don’t take offense because you can write or read whatever you want. I’m just explaining my issues with the SPN fanfictions I see)

Crossovers: Do. Absolutely do. I have a serious love of crossovers. With Supernatural, my favorites are the Superwholock stories. Because I’m a huge nerd and don’t judge me, it’s awesome. (For those sad people who don’t know, Superwholock is Supernatural, Doctor Who and Sherlock.)

Wincest: DON’T. Not ever. I hate every single form of Wincest. Incest is fucking gross people, I don’t care how hot Jared and Jensen are, when they are playing Sam and Dean they are brothers and I don’t even want to entertain the thought of it.

Destiel: Oh please do. Dean and Cas’ “profound bond” is absolutely adorable and I swear, one day Dean will realize that he’s a total dick and realize that Cas is in love with him. It’s just a given.

Serial Killer AUs: Do. For anyone unfamiliar, this is where the supernatural element of SPN is taken out and Sam and Dean are actual serial killers. I love AUs and I love the idea of Sam and Dean being serial killers for real. Dean especially really fits the profile of a serial killer. (I watch too many crime shows… *shrugs*)

Angel Incest: Blarg. In case my tiny rant about Wincest wasn’t clear enough: DON’T. I don’t care if they’re angels, it’s still disgusting. They’re fucking angels people. Angels don’t HAVE sex. At least the majority. Anna did because she was human-ish then and she specifically mention sex being something angels don’t have. Gabriel did because he’s fucking Gabriel. And Balthazar did because fuck the rules. And none of them screwed another angel because THEY’RE FAMILY. Ew.

Gender Bending: Don’t. Gender bending is pretty obviously where you take a character and change their gender. Usually it’s male to female. In SPN, it’s more often than not Sam. But it doesn’t matter because the point of gender bending is to change the character’s gender and keep their personality, but more often than not, the female version is just a generic version of a female original character – usually an author insert. So let’s stop with the gender bending and call a spade a spade. You’re a shitty writer if you do it because you want two characters to have sex but you don’t want to write gay sex. Anyway. Just, don’t. Unless it’s done by, like, a spell or a curse or something and is played for laughs and the character retains their actual personality, it’s just not good.

MPreg: Don’t. Please don’t. MPreg is when a dude gets pregnant. It’s usually very poorly written, though I admit I’ve read a couple of good ones. Generally, author’s don’t bother explaining just how the fuck a guy got pregnant and seem to have set their story in an AU world where guys just get pregnant all the time. It’s bizarre. And gross. And I’m really not a fan.

Giving Sam and Dean a little sister: Why the fuck would you do that? Don’t, obviously. It’s ridiculous. Sam and Dean don’t need a sister. If you want to add a third party to their hunting duo, how about Adam? You know, their actual brother? That guy they left to rot in Hell?

Weechester: Absolutely do. Weechester is basically writing pre-series stories where Sam and Dean are kids. And they are often adorable, sometimes heartbreaking but oh so wonderful. It’s like an extended flashback of awesome when they’re done right. I love Weechester fics.

Adding any new hunters in and pairing them with Sam or Dean: Don’t you fucking dare. That is so annoying. No one wants to read about your fantasies about hunting with the Winchesters and one of them falling for you. NO ONE. Look, 90% of us have those sort of stories in our heads, but we don’t all inflict them on other people so don’t you do it either. It’s annoying. It’s really annoying.

Any Romance at all: Meh. This is an iffy one. I hate romance, especially in Fanfiction where most of the authors have no idea how to write it. However, there are some really good ones out there. I say, as long as it involves two canonical characters and isn’t incest, go for it. I don’t care who you pair together, even if it’s Crowley and Cas (dude, that’d be kinda awesome). Romance can be interesting if it’s written correctly. So it’s a do/don’t because it’s so easily fucked up.

Stanford Era: Do. These fics are so interesting. I love reading about the Stanford era stuff and when they’re done write they’re amazing.

Character Death: Do. It’s SPN. You cannot escape character death and I have grown into a twisted person who is a total masochist. So kill off whoever the hell you want, even Sam if you want.

Character Bashing: I’d avoid it if I were you. There are plenty of characters in SPN I want to tear a new one, but writing them grossly out of character to demonstrate how horrible they are isn’t going to get you anywhere. Sometimes it’s okay, but generally it’s something to avoid. If you really hate the character, just have them brutally killed. It’s what I tend to do with Amelia.

Secretly Genius Dean: Please don’t. I can understand the appeal, but don’t. Dean isn’t a genius. He’s not stupid, but he’s not fucking Einstein. He’s got a GED and he’s more comfortable quoting movies than philosophers. I’m not saying it’s a bad thing; it’s part of who Dean is. It’ feels like a huge breech of his character to have Dean doing calculus or trig or something. He doesn’t like school. It bored him. He’s not an idiot, but he’s not interested in being books smart. He has practical smarts, no need to know anything that he can just have Sam Google or research for him.

And finally:

Samifer: DO. There can never be enough Samifer. Just make sure it’s not all lovey-dovey, happy shit because that relationship is fucked up in a thousand beautiful ways. It hurts so good. Seriously.

So there you have it. Some of my Fanfiction Dos and Don’ts. Not really sorry if I offended anyone. Like I said, you’re totally entitled to disagree with anything I said. They’re just my opinions and I’m hardly the Fanfiction God or anything.

If you want to read some great fanfics, I have a small sample of those here. And if you’re interested in reading my SPN fanfics, you can find those here.

Now that I’ve had some time to recover I think it’s time to take a look back at season 8… (Note that when I say “recover” I mostly just mean I ran out of tears. I’m still reeling from the finale)

I can say honestly that season 8 is my new favorite season. I admit, there are aspects of it that I am still not happy with (like, say, Amelia) but all the same, it was a brilliant, heartbreaking, turbulent rollercoaster ride of awesomeness and badassery like we haven’t really seen in a while.

I have never not loved Supernatural, but I will admit that season 6 was a bit of a mess story-wise and season 7 (while wonderful) had more than its share of moments that made me wanna punch things. (Of course, if we’re looking at all the seasons, nothing in the show is worse than season 3…)

Anyway, this season really took the show somewhere new and also brought back some of the old spark that was the reason I fell in love with it in the first place.

Specifically, I’m talking about Sam and Dean and their relationship.

I don’t know if anyone noticed, but after season 5, Sam and Dean didn’t seem as close. Not that they didn’t care about each other, but there were less brother moments, there was more tension and fighting and very little of the brotherly banter in the first few seasons.

But this season really delivered on the Brotherly Love scale. We got to see Sam and Dean like they haven’t been in a long time. Sure, they were fighting (especially in the beginning when Dean was angry at Sam for not looking for him in Purgatory) but they still looked out for each other and their love for each other really became the focus of the season like it hasn’t been in far too long.

Sam’s struggle with the trials, Dean’s struggle to be there for him even when he couldn’t really do anything about what was going on really reminded me a lot of season 2, when they were freaked out about what was happening to Sam because of the YED.

And the finale… Oh god, the scene where Sam tells Dean about his biggest sin. You guys, I was crying buckets. It was so heartbreaking and so beautiful and it really was just so perfect. I was so happy they had that scene because they needed that scene. The last couple of seasons didn’t give us those kinds of scenes like they used to.

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: Supernatural never fails to surprise me. Just when I think I have things figured out, they change the rules on me.

I was sure that the trials would kill Sam. I was sure of it like I haven’t been sure of anything in a long time. And the worst part is, I was right, but Sam still didn’t die. I totally expected Sam to die in the finale and I have to say and I was pleasantly surprised that not one of the main characters died. We still have Sam, Dean AND Cas.

I said I wanted them to do something different for the finale this year and they did. And I truly loved it even though I’m still freaking out and the fall seems so very far away. I wanna know what happens next NOW.

I was also absolutely certain Naomi would die in the finale – I refused to accept that she would live to go to season 9. I said before that I didn’t even care who killed her or how she died so long as she did and yet again, Supernatural went and changed things on me.

Naomi had to go and apologize and act reasonable and warn them about the danger they were in. THEN they kill her. After she reveals herself to not be a total bitch, they have Metatron shove a drill in her skull.

Not only that, but I trusted Metatron, damn it. I was a bit wary, but I never thought I had anything to actually worry about. I should have listened to my own advice. I always say that you should never trust or like any new character on the show because they always, always turn evil and/or die. ALWAYS.

Supernatural is why I have trust issues.

The story line of this season was just brilliant. The episodes were brilliant. Everything was just brilliant. There was only one not-quite-brilliant-but-still-good episode this season and the only reason I didn’t love that episode was because it’s a crime to have an SPN episode with so little Sam and Dean.

I’m not exaggerating when I say I think this season is the best one yet. The acting, the stories, the cast, the directing, everything was brilliant. It was emotional, it was visceral, it was beautiful and painful and terrifically wonderful.

I only have one concern and that is this: Crowley. They did not finish curing Crowley. Does this mean he will go back to being his demonic self or did the purified blood change him too much? If he does go back to be a demon, will he escape or will Sam and Dean kill him before he can? He’s still chained up in the church. Does he get away? Did they just leave him in there? I’m very, very concerned about the Crowley storyline. I don’t want Crowley to go away just yet.

Also, I’m very interested to see if Abaddon comes back. She smoked out of the body she was in so it’s entirely possible.
And I am extremely anxious to see how they fix the fallen angel problem. (Did anyone else thing it was really beautiful in a depressing way watching all the angels fall?) How are they going to fix thousands of angels thrown out of Heaven? How are they going to solve this one? Are they going to kill Metatron?

I can’t wait to see Sam and Dean and Cas reunited again, working to fix this. I am dying for season 9 already.

Seriously. Why isn’t it Fall yet?

After last Wednesday’s episode (Clip Show, 8×22) I got to thinking about Sam and Dean and Cas and Dean and Cas and Sam and their relationships and the way that they relate to each other.

I’ve always thought Sam was more forgiving to Cas because, well, he gets it. And I’ve noticed some interesting parallels in their character arcs, but that last episode really made me look at them a bit closer.

Cas and Sam have both been through very similar situations.

Sam trusted a demon (Ruby), wrongly, to help him kill Lilith. While Ruby did, ultimately, help Sam kill Lilith, killing Lilith set about a whole, horrible aftermath (Lucifer’s Cage was opened) and Dean placed the blame almost entirely on Sam for betraying him by trusting Ruby. Sam, being Sam, felt horribly guilty and eventually made the ultimate sacrifice to right his wrong, by jumping into the Cage with Lucifer to put a stop to Armageddon. He was (or at least his soul was) in Hell for a year and a half earth-time, 180 years Hell-time.

Now, let’s look at Cas:

Cas trusted a demon (Crowley), wrongly, to help him open Purgatory. While Crowley did help Cas open Purgatory, opening Purgatory set about a whole, horribly aftermath (the Leviathan were released into the world) and Dean placed the blame almost entirely on Cas for betraying him by trusting Crowley. Cas, being Cas, felt horribly guilty and eventually made the ultimate sacrifice to right his wrong, by taking on Sam’s insanity and brokenness, driving himself insane to save Sam from certain death. He later ends up sucked into Purgatory for a year because he helped Sam and Dean stop Dick Roman (the head of the Leviathan).

When I put it like that, it’s almost impossible not to see why Sam relates so strongly to Cas and why he defends him every single time Cas makes a (completely honest) mistake.

Let’s go a bit deeper though.

What were their motives for trusting Ruby and Crowley? What were their intentions?

Well, Sam wanted to kill Lilith, an evil demon who not only dragged Dean into Hell, but who was actively breaking seals to open Lucifer’s Cage. Sam had no way of knowing Lilith was the final seal. His intentions remained, always, in the right.

Cas made his deal with Crowley because Raphael was waging war in Heaven and he was losing. If Raphael won, he would open the Cage, once more releasing Lucifer and starting the Apocalypse all over again. He needed the souls in Purgatory to give him enough power to defeat Raphael. He had no way of knowing that opening Purgatory would unleash the Leviathan.

Even more interesting, think about this: Pride comes before the fall.

Sam was, near the end of season four and his time with Ruby, addicted to demon’s blood and the power it gave him. He felt invincible, powerful. Stronger than Dean and capable of doing anything. He didn’t only want to kill Lilith – he wanted to show Dean that he was not weak. He wanted to prove something to himself and to Dean. He thought he didn’t need Dean, he thought he didn’t need help and he wanted to do it on his own. He became, basically, prideful, self-righteous and power-hungry. It all culminated in the fight between Sam and Dean and Sam actually having demon-black eyes as he killed Lilith and let the demon’s blood consume him.

Cas was, near the end of season six and his deal with Crowley, becoming just as self-righteous, if not more. He wanted to defeat Raphael, not just to stop Armageddon from happening again but also to prove that he was strong enough to lead the Heavenly Host. He was prideful, he was power-hungry and he let that power go to his head, which resulting in the terrifying God!Cas.

And there are even more parallels in their story lines, involving Dean’s reaction this time.

Dean was adamantly against Sam trusting Ruby. It was a bad idea and he knew it and he was entirely unhappy with it. He felt betrayed and he was angry. However, in the following season, Dean works with Crowley to stop Lucifer in spite of Sam insisting that doing was exactly like what he did with Ruby. You cannot trust demons, according to Dean. Not unless he decides it’s okay.

Dean was vehemently against Cas working with Crowley in season six, going so far as to basically disown Cas for doing so and seeing his involvement and lies as the ultimate betrayal. He was pissed and angry and pretty much told Cas he never wanted to see him again. However, the following season, when they were trying to deal with God!Cas, he is the one who suggested that they go to Crowley for help, which was exactly what he disowned Cas for! Again, it’s only okay to trust demons when Dean says so.

Both Sam and Cas have consistently made mistakes for all the right reasons. They were trying to stop powerful demons or powerful angels from unleashing Hell on earth. They were trying to do the right thing. They were trying to protect the people they care about. They fully took responsibility for their actions and sacrificed themselves as penance for their mistakes.

My point is, they’re very, very similar characters. Which is why, whenever Dean was acting like a total dick to Cas Wednesday night, Sam jumped to defend him.

Sam’s always seem the shades of grey in the world. He wants to see the good in everyone, especially someone like Cas who really was only doing the right thing. Sam, unlike Dean, will take into consideration the motivations and intentions behind someone’s actions.

Dean sees betrayal as betrayal. Everything is black and white. Monsters are evil and deserve to die. People who lie to him, hurt him or don’t trust him when he thinks he should be trusted are simply wrong. He adopted that view from John. John raised them to see the world that way, but Sam, in his stubborn need to not be like John, chose to see it different, while Dean, in his desperate need for John’s approval, chose to see it exactly like that.

I’ve noticed, over the seasons, that they’ve both reached a more middle ground. Sam’s less trusting and less optimistic and, especially lately, Dean’s become more willing to accept the shades of grey he usually refuses to see.

But when it comes to family and friends, he’s still stubborn because family means so much and loyalty means so much that every betrayal hurts. It leaves scars and Dean already has such a low opinion of himself that each breach of trust just cracks his sheild even more. So he reacts viscerally, with anger and violence and unbending stubbornness. And Sam, who’s been where Cas is and sees things from his point of view, reacts with understanding, compassion and open-mindedness.

I just hope Dean’s progress on the road to being more open-minded will continue, because this time I really feel his anger isn’t all the justified. He was so cold to Cas and Cas is trying so hard to do the right thing and to make it up to Dean… I know as a viewer I have a more objective eye on the characters’ motivations and actions, but really, Dean knows about Naomi so I don’t get why he was so angry at Cas. I really want him to lay off the poor guy a bit because Cas doesn’t deserve this and, much as I love Dean, no one really ever calls him out on his hypocrisy and bad attitude.

…So, somehow this post became really analytical feeling. *shrugs* Oh well. The point is, I get why Sam is always defending Cas, I get why Dean gets so angry and I get why Cas does what he does the way he does it.

And also… I am terrified of next Wednesday’s episode. *grabs tissues* I am not going to come out it in one piece.

Obviously, this post contains SPOILERS for Supernatural episode 8×22, “Clip Show”

You have been warned.

(this post was written as the episode was airing so… you get my reactions as it happened! Yay for you!)

You know what I’m gonna do about tonight’s episode? I’M GONNA FREAK THE FUCK OUT BECAUSE HOLY SHIT WHAT ARE THEY TRYING TO DO TO ME??

*deep breath*

Okay. Now, let’s get on with this.

The opening scene made me jump a bit and I just kind of covered my mouth saying “But I liked Tommy!” over and over. Come on! I remember that guy! I was happy when they saved him because I didn’t think that they’d be able to and HE JUST GOT KILLED!? No. Not cool. So wrong.

Also… how in hell did Crowley kill him that way? What the hell did he do? For a second I thought an angel was killing him, but there was no bright light so, nope.

*frustration*

Why is Dean being an ass to Cas? What the hell did Cas do to make him act like such a dick? Argh, Dean, you’re pushing me to throw things. I don’t like this. Stop being an ass. Seriously. Stop.

Also, “Weird!!!” huh? Well, that sounds like the Winchesters. This whole “curing a demon” thing is AWESOME. Like, horribly awesome in every way and I am so excited to see this in action I cannot wait.

Also, you may or may not remember that I have a “Winchesters I Wanna Punch in the Face” list, right? And that Sam was on it very recently for lying about this sickness thing and insisting he was fine? Well, Sam’s seeing logic and standing up for Cas because DAMN IT DEAN STOP BEING A DICK!!! Sam’s off the list. He’s good.

Dean is not. Not until he stops being a dick to Cas.

Cas shopping is like, the most adorable thing ever. He’s trying so hard to make things up to Dean (never mind that NAOMI IS RESPONSIBLE FOR MOST OF HIS BEHAVIOR) I loved his “I NEED PIE!” line. It was so adorable.

And then Metatron showing up. Gah. Sorry, I mean, Marv. Anyway. I’m in love with this guy and his plan to shut the angels up in Heaven and make them work together, but these trials are freaking me out a bit. I don’t want Cas to cut this girl’s heart out I just… *chews lip* I’m so conflicted. This sounds like a brilliant idea but… I don’t like the trial. It scares me.

However, I loved them talking about the angels like a dysfunctional family in need of serious help. Family therapy maybe? As long as Naomi the Evil Bitch dies, I don’t care how they fix it.

Yay! Abaddon’s back! I loved her so much! Her line about wanting to rip out their pretty eyes made me giggle and I blame my friend Beronica entirely (her obsession with eyes is wearing off on me. I don’t like this, Beronica. You’re making me seem even more twisted than I usually am). But seriously, they do have gorgeous eyes.

Ah, then Crowley calls and I really shouldn’t have been so happy about that. But he’s Crowley! And he’s totally awesome. And… He’s reading Chuck’s books too?!?!? Damn it, those books are getting mileage aren’t they?

AW HE KILLED JENNY!! Goddamn it, Crowley. I liked her too. *pout*

Ooh, Yay! Sarah!! Sarah’s back! I’M SO HAPPY TO SEE SARAH! LIKE YOU CAN’T EVEN BELIEVE HOW HAPPY I AM TO SEE SARAH THIS IS SO FUCKING AWSOME! SARAH’S BACK!!

Aw man… I really don’t want Cas to kill this chick, but… Wait. Shit, she’s beating the hell out of them. Kill her, Cas, I don’t care anymore. Gut her if you have to. Good job, Cas! 🙂

And we’re back with Sarah. I swear, if she dies… You two better keep her safe, Sam and Dean. God, she’s so good at keeping her emotions in check. I love this chick. She had better not die. I will scream.

Yay! Sarah’s married! And has kids. I hate to say that this relieves me, ‘cos I loved her with Sam, but I really don’t want Sam to have another relationship right now. Even with someone as awesome as Sarah.

Oh fuck. She asked about him. *don’t mention Amelia. Don’t mention Amelia. DON’T MENTION AMELIA* *phew* He didn’t mention Amelia and Sarah’s still being awesome about – DON’T INSULT SAM’S HAIR SARAH! I love Sam’s hair.

SAVE HER. OH GOD DAMN IT. SAVE HER. SAVE HER!!! God damn it, SAVE HER!! *sobbing* Save her!! DON’T YOU DARE LET HER DIE!! DON’T LET HER DIE!!! DON’T YOU DARE LET HER DIE.

Shut up Crowley! SHUT UP!! Save her!! God damn it, SAVE HER!!!

*sobbing*

NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

Crowley… *sobs* H-How could you?!?!? I can’t even… *sobs*

I hate this show so fucking much sometimes.

*choking on sobs*

D-Don’t even think about taking the deal, Sam. Don’t. It’s horrible. Please don’t. I hate watching people die too, but, this is CROWLEY. You know this is a bad idea. Plus, you’re fucking dying right now. You gotta finish the trials so that you can get better. I have a horrible suspicious that you’ll die, but you’ve done that before and since there’s a season 9 I know you’ll come back and…

I can’t do this. I hurt too much. Goddamn it, Supernatural, I knew I shouldn’t have hoped for better from you, but really, you could’ve let this one go. You could’ve let them save Sarah. YOU DIDN’T HAVE TO HURT ME ALL OVER AGAIN YOU ASSHOLES.

*sobs*

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Thoughts on the PROMO:

HOLY SHIT THEY’RE GONNA TRY TO CURE CROWLEY? WHAT? WHAT THE HELL?? *explodes*