Archive for May, 2013

I have officially survived more than a week after the Supernatural finale. I find that to be a miracle considering that last Saturday I watched the Doctor Who finale and Thursday was the Elementary finale and this Wednesday was the Criminal Minds finale that SPOILER ALERT killed off a character they were just starting to develop properly. Those bastards.

But anyway, what I want to talk about today is the fact that I’ve been having these really aggravating arguments with people and was recently called a hypocrite BY MY OWN MOTHER for the way I act about Supernatural.

Basically, the gist of the story is: I despise Twilight with the white-hot intensity of a thousand suns. And I am vocal about that hatred. Then, someone said that they thought the recent season of Supernatural was stupid and the storyline was idiotic. I flipped my shit, guys, I will not lie. It utterly pissed me off. I didn’t flip out on the person who said it, but I did rant about it for a while to my brother and my mom overheard and told me I was getting upset for someone doing the same thing that I do to Twilight.

That made me stop and think because I never, EVER want to be compared to the crazy Twilight fangirls that scare the shit out of me.

Look, to be clear, everyone can have their own opinion and I get that there are people who just don’t like Supernatural. I can even accept that there are people who legitimately like Twilight. If everyone had the same opinions the world would be boring.

However, I do have to defend myself a bit: yes, I am a totally insane fangirl and yes, if you insult the fandoms I am a part of I will be very quick to argue my points. But the thing is, I LIKE arguing with people about that stuff. Not screaming, yelling, tossing insults, etc. of course. Just a good debate.

The difference between me and the fangirls I don’t like is that I won’t tell someone that they’re an idiot simply because they say that they don’t like something I happen to adore.

In the case of Supernatural, there are many fans who don’t like to hear negative things said about the show, but I’m not one of them. Hell, I think I rant enough about the show that some people probably have to wonder why I’m so in love with. There are things about the show that I despise with such intensity that thinking about them upsets me.

I can go on for hours about the shitty things I hate Dean for doing, about the stupid choices Sam has made and about how much John Winchester pissed me off. Yet, I love them all.

I’m not one of those fangirls who thinks my fandom is above reproach. I don’t think Supernatural is perfect. What I do think, however, is that it is brilliant. I think the show is a lot deeper than some people think. I think the storyline (especially this season) is unique and beautiful. I think the relationship between Sam and Dean is amazing. I think Supernatural has some of the best actors ever on their show. I think the special effects are phenomenal. (And have improved dramatically since season 1.) I think the beauty of the show is that despite its flaws, it’s still remarkable and tells a story people are interested in. A story that I am very much in love with, with characters I care about.

I want people to stop assuming that being part of a fandom means that fangirls are the devotedly insane type of people who will bite your hand off for insulting their favorite character.

Seriously, go ahead and tell me how much you hate Sam Winchester. I have a very close friend who actually despises Sam to the point that she will write fanfictions with him being tortured just because. She’s a bit twisted, mind you, but it doesn’t bother me. In fact, we have some interesting debates about the show and other fandoms because we actually don’t agree on much of anything except that we love the shows.

I enjoy those kind of debates, talking about the nature of characters and what their choices mean and whether or not they were a “bad” character. It’s interesting and I learn things doing that.

Basically, what I’m saying is: I might be overly protective of my fandoms, I might get upset when someone goes to a site dedicated to loving the show and says it’s stupid, but if you’ve got actual reasons backing you up and aren’t just an idiotic troll, then I completely and utterly do not care that you have a differing opinion.

No one can convince me that Supernatural isn’t awesome, but then again, I doubt I could convince someone that it IS awesome if they’re so deadest on hating it so there’s that.

I think I’m done now… I need to go prepare myself for watching the re-run of “As Time Goes By” tonight. Because I’m a masochist and I wanna rip open the scars.

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Now that I’ve had some time to recover I think it’s time to take a look back at season 8… (Note that when I say “recover” I mostly just mean I ran out of tears. I’m still reeling from the finale)

I can say honestly that season 8 is my new favorite season. I admit, there are aspects of it that I am still not happy with (like, say, Amelia) but all the same, it was a brilliant, heartbreaking, turbulent rollercoaster ride of awesomeness and badassery like we haven’t really seen in a while.

I have never not loved Supernatural, but I will admit that season 6 was a bit of a mess story-wise and season 7 (while wonderful) had more than its share of moments that made me wanna punch things. (Of course, if we’re looking at all the seasons, nothing in the show is worse than season 3…)

Anyway, this season really took the show somewhere new and also brought back some of the old spark that was the reason I fell in love with it in the first place.

Specifically, I’m talking about Sam and Dean and their relationship.

I don’t know if anyone noticed, but after season 5, Sam and Dean didn’t seem as close. Not that they didn’t care about each other, but there were less brother moments, there was more tension and fighting and very little of the brotherly banter in the first few seasons.

But this season really delivered on the Brotherly Love scale. We got to see Sam and Dean like they haven’t been in a long time. Sure, they were fighting (especially in the beginning when Dean was angry at Sam for not looking for him in Purgatory) but they still looked out for each other and their love for each other really became the focus of the season like it hasn’t been in far too long.

Sam’s struggle with the trials, Dean’s struggle to be there for him even when he couldn’t really do anything about what was going on really reminded me a lot of season 2, when they were freaked out about what was happening to Sam because of the YED.

And the finale… Oh god, the scene where Sam tells Dean about his biggest sin. You guys, I was crying buckets. It was so heartbreaking and so beautiful and it really was just so perfect. I was so happy they had that scene because they needed that scene. The last couple of seasons didn’t give us those kinds of scenes like they used to.

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: Supernatural never fails to surprise me. Just when I think I have things figured out, they change the rules on me.

I was sure that the trials would kill Sam. I was sure of it like I haven’t been sure of anything in a long time. And the worst part is, I was right, but Sam still didn’t die. I totally expected Sam to die in the finale and I have to say and I was pleasantly surprised that not one of the main characters died. We still have Sam, Dean AND Cas.

I said I wanted them to do something different for the finale this year and they did. And I truly loved it even though I’m still freaking out and the fall seems so very far away. I wanna know what happens next NOW.

I was also absolutely certain Naomi would die in the finale – I refused to accept that she would live to go to season 9. I said before that I didn’t even care who killed her or how she died so long as she did and yet again, Supernatural went and changed things on me.

Naomi had to go and apologize and act reasonable and warn them about the danger they were in. THEN they kill her. After she reveals herself to not be a total bitch, they have Metatron shove a drill in her skull.

Not only that, but I trusted Metatron, damn it. I was a bit wary, but I never thought I had anything to actually worry about. I should have listened to my own advice. I always say that you should never trust or like any new character on the show because they always, always turn evil and/or die. ALWAYS.

Supernatural is why I have trust issues.

The story line of this season was just brilliant. The episodes were brilliant. Everything was just brilliant. There was only one not-quite-brilliant-but-still-good episode this season and the only reason I didn’t love that episode was because it’s a crime to have an SPN episode with so little Sam and Dean.

I’m not exaggerating when I say I think this season is the best one yet. The acting, the stories, the cast, the directing, everything was brilliant. It was emotional, it was visceral, it was beautiful and painful and terrifically wonderful.

I only have one concern and that is this: Crowley. They did not finish curing Crowley. Does this mean he will go back to being his demonic self or did the purified blood change him too much? If he does go back to be a demon, will he escape or will Sam and Dean kill him before he can? He’s still chained up in the church. Does he get away? Did they just leave him in there? I’m very, very concerned about the Crowley storyline. I don’t want Crowley to go away just yet.

Also, I’m very interested to see if Abaddon comes back. She smoked out of the body she was in so it’s entirely possible.
And I am extremely anxious to see how they fix the fallen angel problem. (Did anyone else thing it was really beautiful in a depressing way watching all the angels fall?) How are they going to fix thousands of angels thrown out of Heaven? How are they going to solve this one? Are they going to kill Metatron?

I can’t wait to see Sam and Dean and Cas reunited again, working to fix this. I am dying for season 9 already.

Seriously. Why isn’t it Fall yet?

As we prepare for tonight’s episode (Sacrifice, 8×23) of Supernatural I figured I might as well say a few things about my expectations for the episode before I get my heart ripped out and am unable to do anything but choke on my own tears. Besides, maybe if I talk my way through it before the episode, I won’t be catatonic by the end of it…

So, here are a few of my thoughts on what I expect to happen and what I want to happen tonight:

Curing Crowley:

I cannot stress enough how much I do not want this to happen. Crowley having his humanity restored would be even worse than killing him outright. You take away the badass, ruthless demon and Crowley won’t be half as awesome as he is. I couldn’t take that. I’d rather he just be killed. My hope is that Sam and Dean won’t be able to curse him because Abaddon will burst in before they can. (That’s what I think will happen from the promo at least).

I’d much rather Abaddon kill Crowley than Sam and Dean cure him. I mean, I don’t want him to die, but if it’s a choice between the two then you can bet your ass I’d rather see him dead.

Sealing off Hell:

Again, this is something I am vehemently against. I just don’t want them to be successful here. It’s not like I’m rooting for the bad guys (though, with the generally awesome cast of baddies on SPN, that’s not necessarily a bad thing…), but I just can’t figure out how they’d even have a show anymore with Hell sealed off.

It would mean the end of Crowley, which is enough for me to hate it. But it would also effectively destroy any chance of most of the major villains from the series ever coming back or for them to have anywhere near the same level of badassery.

Let’s face it, the demons are their best villains. The Leviathan just pissed me off and while the angels were total dickbags, only Lucifer really lived up to the same level of awesome as their demon villains.

Meg, Azazel, Abaddon, Crowley… They’re the kind of bad guys that this show needs and closing the Gates of Hell would destroy their cast of villains. We’d be stuck with fucking Naomi and no one wants that. No one.

So I want Sam and Dean to lose this one, for the sake of the show. They cannot win. If they do close the Gates of Hell, I expect there to be severe backlash. Like, opening the Cage and freeing Lucifer backlash.

Sealing off Heaven:

This, however, I’m not so against. I will admit, I’m very nervous about these trials Cas is going to have to do. And a friend pointed out that Metatron could very well be hiding something. And given that he’s an angel, there’s likely some unknown agenda there. But still, I really love the idea of slamming the Pearly Gates shut. Plus, the way Metatron talked, it seems like a non-permanent solution so the Gates could be opened again.

It seems like a sound solution for getting thing in Heaven back in order. They need it. Things have been insanely chaotic up there since season 5. And they seem to be getting worse. It’s a sad, sad day when Hell is more organized than Heaven.

Killing Naomi:

Okay… I want this so bad. I just really want Naomi to die. I don’t even care who kills her, I just want to see her dead. I’d prefer for Cas to do it, but I honestly don’t care if it’s Crowley or Dean or Sam… Hell, it could be some nameless angel or demon. I don’t give a fuck, just stab the bitch in the face and put us out of our misery.

The “Sacrifice”:

I’ve already talked a bit about my thoughts on the episode title and what it could mean. I think I’d love for the sacrifice in question to be Sam giving his life up – I’d never, ever forgive them, however, if it’s Dean again. Dean died last season, don’t kill him again.

Besides, the state Sam’s in… he’s not gonna live through this one, I don’t think. It horrifies me, because as you should know I’m a total SamGirl, but it’s not like he’ll be dead permanently. So I’d be okay with it.

I wouldn’t be okay with Cas dying again. I want them to cut Cas a break. Oddly enough, I never want them to cut Sam and Dean a break, but with Cas… damn it, stop picking on him! He’s been through enough. Poor, nerdy little badass warrior of God.

My random, totally-not-gonna-happen-but-dear-Lucifer-if-it-did-theory: The “sacrifice” is Amelia. Sam has to kill Amelia. And he does. Sure, it’ll scar him psychologically, but he spent nearly 200 years in Hell and seems relatively fine now. He’ll get over it. Just kill Amelia and I won’t complain about anything else that happens.

Dean and Cas:

It’s not what you think, I swear. While I totally ship Destiel, I seriously doubt it’ll happen outside of fanfiction and fanvids. No, what I’m talking about is how Dean was a total dick last Wednesday for no reason and Cas clearly was trying to make it up to Dean so what I want, more than anything, from tonight’s finale is for Dean to forgive Cas. And hug him.

I want a Dean/Cas hug, damn it. Cas deserves to be forgiving. I wouldn’t blame Cas if he punched Dean in the face for being such an ass to him.

And, if we can’t get Dean and Cas hugging, can Sam hug him? Please? Because Sam hasn’t hugged Cas and Cas needs a hug, damn it! Someone just hug Cas!

Crowley’s Victims:

So… I’ve been thinking about this. Crowley read Chuck’s books. (And apparently, Chuck has been publishing them again since Crowley knew about Jenny – who was from season 7 – and Charlie knew Sam and Dean saved the world – something they didn’t do until season 5.) And Crowley’s been using the books to find victims…

I know it’s unlikely, if not impossible, but this is just a short list of who I think he should have gone/should go after:

Cassie – Dean’s ex from the racist truck episode, “Route 666

Lucas – the little boy they saved in “Dead in the Water

Michael and/or Asher – the two little boys they saved in “Something Wicked

Tyler – the little girl from “Playthings

Tara – the actress from “Hollywood Babylon

Matt – the kid from “Bugs” (yes, I realize the same actor played Samandriel… but still, it could work!)

Lori – the girl from “Hook Man

Yes, I am aware that there are several children on this list. But if Crowley’s going all out, he might as well. Plus, the kids would be older now. Also, I tried to include more people that Sam connected with… but they all seem to be dead so really, Matt and Lori are all I can think off. Anyway.

I think that’s pretty much everything. I still don’t feel an less anxious about the finale, but hey, maybe I won’t drown on my own tears tonight.

*bursts out laughing*

Yeah right. I’m screwed. Oh well. Time to go prepare my emo corner for when the episode is over. I’ve got a lot of sobbing ahead of me, I think.

After last Wednesday’s episode (Clip Show, 8×22) I got to thinking about Sam and Dean and Cas and Dean and Cas and Sam and their relationships and the way that they relate to each other.

I’ve always thought Sam was more forgiving to Cas because, well, he gets it. And I’ve noticed some interesting parallels in their character arcs, but that last episode really made me look at them a bit closer.

Cas and Sam have both been through very similar situations.

Sam trusted a demon (Ruby), wrongly, to help him kill Lilith. While Ruby did, ultimately, help Sam kill Lilith, killing Lilith set about a whole, horrible aftermath (Lucifer’s Cage was opened) and Dean placed the blame almost entirely on Sam for betraying him by trusting Ruby. Sam, being Sam, felt horribly guilty and eventually made the ultimate sacrifice to right his wrong, by jumping into the Cage with Lucifer to put a stop to Armageddon. He was (or at least his soul was) in Hell for a year and a half earth-time, 180 years Hell-time.

Now, let’s look at Cas:

Cas trusted a demon (Crowley), wrongly, to help him open Purgatory. While Crowley did help Cas open Purgatory, opening Purgatory set about a whole, horribly aftermath (the Leviathan were released into the world) and Dean placed the blame almost entirely on Cas for betraying him by trusting Crowley. Cas, being Cas, felt horribly guilty and eventually made the ultimate sacrifice to right his wrong, by taking on Sam’s insanity and brokenness, driving himself insane to save Sam from certain death. He later ends up sucked into Purgatory for a year because he helped Sam and Dean stop Dick Roman (the head of the Leviathan).

When I put it like that, it’s almost impossible not to see why Sam relates so strongly to Cas and why he defends him every single time Cas makes a (completely honest) mistake.

Let’s go a bit deeper though.

What were their motives for trusting Ruby and Crowley? What were their intentions?

Well, Sam wanted to kill Lilith, an evil demon who not only dragged Dean into Hell, but who was actively breaking seals to open Lucifer’s Cage. Sam had no way of knowing Lilith was the final seal. His intentions remained, always, in the right.

Cas made his deal with Crowley because Raphael was waging war in Heaven and he was losing. If Raphael won, he would open the Cage, once more releasing Lucifer and starting the Apocalypse all over again. He needed the souls in Purgatory to give him enough power to defeat Raphael. He had no way of knowing that opening Purgatory would unleash the Leviathan.

Even more interesting, think about this: Pride comes before the fall.

Sam was, near the end of season four and his time with Ruby, addicted to demon’s blood and the power it gave him. He felt invincible, powerful. Stronger than Dean and capable of doing anything. He didn’t only want to kill Lilith – he wanted to show Dean that he was not weak. He wanted to prove something to himself and to Dean. He thought he didn’t need Dean, he thought he didn’t need help and he wanted to do it on his own. He became, basically, prideful, self-righteous and power-hungry. It all culminated in the fight between Sam and Dean and Sam actually having demon-black eyes as he killed Lilith and let the demon’s blood consume him.

Cas was, near the end of season six and his deal with Crowley, becoming just as self-righteous, if not more. He wanted to defeat Raphael, not just to stop Armageddon from happening again but also to prove that he was strong enough to lead the Heavenly Host. He was prideful, he was power-hungry and he let that power go to his head, which resulting in the terrifying God!Cas.

And there are even more parallels in their story lines, involving Dean’s reaction this time.

Dean was adamantly against Sam trusting Ruby. It was a bad idea and he knew it and he was entirely unhappy with it. He felt betrayed and he was angry. However, in the following season, Dean works with Crowley to stop Lucifer in spite of Sam insisting that doing was exactly like what he did with Ruby. You cannot trust demons, according to Dean. Not unless he decides it’s okay.

Dean was vehemently against Cas working with Crowley in season six, going so far as to basically disown Cas for doing so and seeing his involvement and lies as the ultimate betrayal. He was pissed and angry and pretty much told Cas he never wanted to see him again. However, the following season, when they were trying to deal with God!Cas, he is the one who suggested that they go to Crowley for help, which was exactly what he disowned Cas for! Again, it’s only okay to trust demons when Dean says so.

Both Sam and Cas have consistently made mistakes for all the right reasons. They were trying to stop powerful demons or powerful angels from unleashing Hell on earth. They were trying to do the right thing. They were trying to protect the people they care about. They fully took responsibility for their actions and sacrificed themselves as penance for their mistakes.

My point is, they’re very, very similar characters. Which is why, whenever Dean was acting like a total dick to Cas Wednesday night, Sam jumped to defend him.

Sam’s always seem the shades of grey in the world. He wants to see the good in everyone, especially someone like Cas who really was only doing the right thing. Sam, unlike Dean, will take into consideration the motivations and intentions behind someone’s actions.

Dean sees betrayal as betrayal. Everything is black and white. Monsters are evil and deserve to die. People who lie to him, hurt him or don’t trust him when he thinks he should be trusted are simply wrong. He adopted that view from John. John raised them to see the world that way, but Sam, in his stubborn need to not be like John, chose to see it different, while Dean, in his desperate need for John’s approval, chose to see it exactly like that.

I’ve noticed, over the seasons, that they’ve both reached a more middle ground. Sam’s less trusting and less optimistic and, especially lately, Dean’s become more willing to accept the shades of grey he usually refuses to see.

But when it comes to family and friends, he’s still stubborn because family means so much and loyalty means so much that every betrayal hurts. It leaves scars and Dean already has such a low opinion of himself that each breach of trust just cracks his sheild even more. So he reacts viscerally, with anger and violence and unbending stubbornness. And Sam, who’s been where Cas is and sees things from his point of view, reacts with understanding, compassion and open-mindedness.

I just hope Dean’s progress on the road to being more open-minded will continue, because this time I really feel his anger isn’t all the justified. He was so cold to Cas and Cas is trying so hard to do the right thing and to make it up to Dean… I know as a viewer I have a more objective eye on the characters’ motivations and actions, but really, Dean knows about Naomi so I don’t get why he was so angry at Cas. I really want him to lay off the poor guy a bit because Cas doesn’t deserve this and, much as I love Dean, no one really ever calls him out on his hypocrisy and bad attitude.

…So, somehow this post became really analytical feeling. *shrugs* Oh well. The point is, I get why Sam is always defending Cas, I get why Dean gets so angry and I get why Cas does what he does the way he does it.

And also… I am terrified of next Wednesday’s episode. *grabs tissues* I am not going to come out it in one piece.

Obviously, this post contains SPOILERS for Supernatural episode 8×22, “Clip Show”

You have been warned.

(this post was written as the episode was airing so… you get my reactions as it happened! Yay for you!)

You know what I’m gonna do about tonight’s episode? I’M GONNA FREAK THE FUCK OUT BECAUSE HOLY SHIT WHAT ARE THEY TRYING TO DO TO ME??

*deep breath*

Okay. Now, let’s get on with this.

The opening scene made me jump a bit and I just kind of covered my mouth saying “But I liked Tommy!” over and over. Come on! I remember that guy! I was happy when they saved him because I didn’t think that they’d be able to and HE JUST GOT KILLED!? No. Not cool. So wrong.

Also… how in hell did Crowley kill him that way? What the hell did he do? For a second I thought an angel was killing him, but there was no bright light so, nope.

*frustration*

Why is Dean being an ass to Cas? What the hell did Cas do to make him act like such a dick? Argh, Dean, you’re pushing me to throw things. I don’t like this. Stop being an ass. Seriously. Stop.

Also, “Weird!!!” huh? Well, that sounds like the Winchesters. This whole “curing a demon” thing is AWESOME. Like, horribly awesome in every way and I am so excited to see this in action I cannot wait.

Also, you may or may not remember that I have a “Winchesters I Wanna Punch in the Face” list, right? And that Sam was on it very recently for lying about this sickness thing and insisting he was fine? Well, Sam’s seeing logic and standing up for Cas because DAMN IT DEAN STOP BEING A DICK!!! Sam’s off the list. He’s good.

Dean is not. Not until he stops being a dick to Cas.

Cas shopping is like, the most adorable thing ever. He’s trying so hard to make things up to Dean (never mind that NAOMI IS RESPONSIBLE FOR MOST OF HIS BEHAVIOR) I loved his “I NEED PIE!” line. It was so adorable.

And then Metatron showing up. Gah. Sorry, I mean, Marv. Anyway. I’m in love with this guy and his plan to shut the angels up in Heaven and make them work together, but these trials are freaking me out a bit. I don’t want Cas to cut this girl’s heart out I just… *chews lip* I’m so conflicted. This sounds like a brilliant idea but… I don’t like the trial. It scares me.

However, I loved them talking about the angels like a dysfunctional family in need of serious help. Family therapy maybe? As long as Naomi the Evil Bitch dies, I don’t care how they fix it.

Yay! Abaddon’s back! I loved her so much! Her line about wanting to rip out their pretty eyes made me giggle and I blame my friend Beronica entirely (her obsession with eyes is wearing off on me. I don’t like this, Beronica. You’re making me seem even more twisted than I usually am). But seriously, they do have gorgeous eyes.

Ah, then Crowley calls and I really shouldn’t have been so happy about that. But he’s Crowley! And he’s totally awesome. And… He’s reading Chuck’s books too?!?!? Damn it, those books are getting mileage aren’t they?

AW HE KILLED JENNY!! Goddamn it, Crowley. I liked her too. *pout*

Ooh, Yay! Sarah!! Sarah’s back! I’M SO HAPPY TO SEE SARAH! LIKE YOU CAN’T EVEN BELIEVE HOW HAPPY I AM TO SEE SARAH THIS IS SO FUCKING AWSOME! SARAH’S BACK!!

Aw man… I really don’t want Cas to kill this chick, but… Wait. Shit, she’s beating the hell out of them. Kill her, Cas, I don’t care anymore. Gut her if you have to. Good job, Cas! 🙂

And we’re back with Sarah. I swear, if she dies… You two better keep her safe, Sam and Dean. God, she’s so good at keeping her emotions in check. I love this chick. She had better not die. I will scream.

Yay! Sarah’s married! And has kids. I hate to say that this relieves me, ‘cos I loved her with Sam, but I really don’t want Sam to have another relationship right now. Even with someone as awesome as Sarah.

Oh fuck. She asked about him. *don’t mention Amelia. Don’t mention Amelia. DON’T MENTION AMELIA* *phew* He didn’t mention Amelia and Sarah’s still being awesome about – DON’T INSULT SAM’S HAIR SARAH! I love Sam’s hair.

SAVE HER. OH GOD DAMN IT. SAVE HER. SAVE HER!!! God damn it, SAVE HER!! *sobbing* Save her!! DON’T YOU DARE LET HER DIE!! DON’T LET HER DIE!!! DON’T YOU DARE LET HER DIE.

Shut up Crowley! SHUT UP!! Save her!! God damn it, SAVE HER!!!

*sobbing*

NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

Crowley… *sobs* H-How could you?!?!? I can’t even… *sobs*

I hate this show so fucking much sometimes.

*choking on sobs*

D-Don’t even think about taking the deal, Sam. Don’t. It’s horrible. Please don’t. I hate watching people die too, but, this is CROWLEY. You know this is a bad idea. Plus, you’re fucking dying right now. You gotta finish the trials so that you can get better. I have a horrible suspicious that you’ll die, but you’ve done that before and since there’s a season 9 I know you’ll come back and…

I can’t do this. I hurt too much. Goddamn it, Supernatural, I knew I shouldn’t have hoped for better from you, but really, you could’ve let this one go. You could’ve let them save Sarah. YOU DIDN’T HAVE TO HURT ME ALL OVER AGAIN YOU ASSHOLES.

*sobs*

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Thoughts on the PROMO:

HOLY SHIT THEY’RE GONNA TRY TO CURE CROWLEY? WHAT? WHAT THE HELL?? *explodes*

I wasn’t going to do a post today, or any posts at all about the SPN NJCon because I DIDN’T GET TO GO. (I’m totally not bitter about this guys, I swear. ) But then I recently saw the “We Will Support Jensen Forever” was trending worldwide on twitter and I was confused. I always support Jensen Ackles because he is a wonderful man and I admire him very much, but clearly something happened that I wasn’t aware of to cause this.

After a bit of digging on Facebook and tumblr, and a YouTube video sent to me by a friend, I discovered the reason.

Apparently, there was quite a bit of upset over a fan’s question to Jensen.

For clarification, I’m going again remind you that I was not there and nearly all of this is from secondary sources (except one very important piece which I think settles the matter quite nicely).

So, apparently a fan started to ask a question about Dean (the character) possibly being bisexual. I watched the video and I can’t hear everything very well, but she states first the she herself is bisexual and was curious about the currently subtext on the show about Dean’s character. She get’s to the word “subtext” and the crowd starts booing her.

I can’t hear Jensen’s response very well, but it SOUNDS like he says “The first question!” or something along those lines. Possibly because this isn’t the first time he’s been asked about Dean’s sexuality (it isn’t) and possibly because the fans in the crowd are being assholes ON THE VERY FIRST QUESTION.

Either way, he didn’t get the hear the entire question or respond to it at all because the girl was led away and people began making a big deal out of it saying that JENSEN was being rude, homophobic and reacted badly.

How? It was the CROWD who reacted badly, not Jensen. It was the crowd that booed the girl. It was the crowd that became volatile enough that she didn’t get to finish asking her completely not-offensive question.

So, after watching the video, I followed links in the comments that lead me to the mystery girl’s tumblr blog that she created to help explain and diffuse the situation after she realized what had happened.

First, here’s her entire question as she meant to ask it:

I’ve loved seeing Dean’s character become more comfortable with himself this season. As a bisexual, I’ve noticed some possible subtext, as seen in Everybody Hates Hitler, that Dean might be coming to accept himself as something other than straight too? I know you’ve said you know Dean better than anyone, so, in your professional opinion, as the preeminent scholar on Dean Winchester, if you see that as a valid interpretation of what’s going on with the character this season. 

See, that. Not offensive. Just a simple, totally acceptable question that, frankly, I’d have loved to know Jensen’s answer to, but because the crowd reacted so poorly, he didn’t even hear the whole question and couldn’t respond.

“The Mystery Girl” is clearly not offended by Jensen or Clif or Jared and how they reacted and responded.

Basically, what I’m saying is, please, please stop harassing Jensen and the SPN crew/cast. NONE OF THEM HAVE DONE ANYTHING, AT ALL, TO OFFEND THE LGBT COMMUNITY. Nothing Jensen did was homophobic. He didn’t insult the girl or force her to leave.

He is being made out to be a villain, when it was clearly the crowd that was too immature to handle her question. And it is fans like that who make me ashamed of being associated with the SPN fandom sometimes. Seriously. Grow up. And for fuck’s sake, leave Jensen alone because he did nothing wrong.

I encourage you guys to go check out her tumblr blog if you want more info about this, because that’s where I got a lot of this from.

First, let’s all have a moment of silence to remember those we lost in the Battle of Hogwarts, fifteen years ago today. *wipes away tears*

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*sharply inhales*

*clears throat*

*taps microphone*

Alright. Ahem. And now, let’s get on with the post. Everybody, I’d like you all to turn your attention to the man of hour: SAM WINCHESTER!

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Just look at that gorgeous face! *swoon*

Anyway. Sam Winchester was born 30 years ago today on May 2, 1983! This is a big birthday for the younger half of our favorite duo of badass brothers! So what can we possibly do to celebrate such a momentous occasion?

Well… I have a few ideas…

Ah... Just how I like him: angry and restrained. ;)

Ah… Just how I like him: angry and restrained. 😉

Ah… hmm… *clears throat* But let’s save those plans for later. When we’re alone, huh, Sammy?

Aw, I’m sure we all remember what an adorable little baby Sam was! Why, I remember it as if it were yesterday…

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Literally the most adorable thing I’ve seen all day…

Aww! Look at how cute he is! :3 So adorable!

And of course, that adorable little baby (and his cutie pie older brother, of course) grew up to be a badass hero and we all thank him immensely for, ya know, saving our pathetic asses and giving his own life to stop Lucifer.

We all love Sam for his heart and his brilliant mind and his ability to see (or at least, attempt to see) the good in almost everyone. Even the monsters he and Dean hunt. We love him for being intelligent and thoughtful and stubborn and sometimes just a bit stupid, too, because no matter what we know he’s got Dean’s back.

So happy birthday, Sammy! I love you, we all love you and you’re totally awesome, so don’t forget that.

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Now c’mere and let me give you your present…