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It’s been too long since my last post (sorry! Getting prepared for Finals and Thanksgiving and all that…) but I haven’t forgotten this.

Since several episodes have passed since my last post I think now is as good a time as any for me to take a step back and just give you guys my opinion of the season thus far.

I was looking forward to season 9 since before the final episode of season 8 finished airing. I waited impatiently for months for the premier of season 9, expecting and pretty much demanding an epic season 9.

And I was not, at first, disappointed. The season 9 premier? One of my newest favorite episodes. It had Cas being confused and Dean being angsty and somewhat hypocritical and it had Sam treading that line between wanting to go on and wanting to just finally have peace. It had Ezekiel, who I really, really love and everyone was fantastic.

The next episode was… good. It was really good. Especially Dean’s scene with Abaddon and Kevin and Crowley together? God was that wonderful. It wouldn’t make my top 10 or anything, but I enjoyed it.

As for the next slew of episodes? They were good too. Nothing was bad about them and there were some really kick-ass moments all around for everyone, but I really started to feel a bit underwhelmed. It’s not that I don’t like season 9, it’s just that, so far, season 8 was better and that’s even taking *twitch* Amelia *twitch* into consideration.

I do have some specific issues, mostly with the two episodes “Dog Dean Afternoon” (9×05) and “Slumber Party” (9×04).

I’m gonna start withy 9×05 because I had less issues with it.

This was the fifth episode of the season and the fifth episode in a row in which Sam was either nearly killed or knocked out. Episode one we had Sam in a coma and dying, which worked fine because I totally get the trials having a nasty effect on him. Episode we had Sam getting knocked out by a bunch of demons. Fair enough; there were three or four demons and Sam was still in “recovery” mode for the most part. Episode three we had Sam getting knocked out by the April and then Cas died and Zeke brought him back. Episode four we had Sam get whammied by the Wicked Witch and Charlie was killed and brought back. Episode five we had Sam attacked by the shape-shifter-ish guy and nearly killed and then saved (again) by Zeke.

At which point I ripped at my hair and screamed: SAM IS NOT THIS BAD AT HUNTING. He’s actually supposed to be good at hunting. Why the flying fuck is he getting batted around and knocked out all the time lately? We get it! Zeke is possessing Sam and so can save him in a time of need. Please stop smashing us over the head with that already. Zeke already said Sam’s healing pretty well, so there’s really no point to the bashing Sam’s been taking. He’s a good hunter, guys. Better than this, certainly. So stop it.

Other than that minor(ish) point, however, the episode was fantastic and I laughed ’til there were tears in my eyes. I miss the Colonel. I want him to come back just because he was totally awesome.

Now… onto “Slumber Party”

*deep breath*

Guys, I liked this episode. It was okay. It was good, even. I wanted to love it. I mean, come on, it’s the Wizard of Oz! It’s Dorothy and the Men of Letters and the Wicked Witch and everything! Flying Monkeys! Oz! I honestly did not expect anything less than epic.

I was sorely disappointed.

The episode was just… not great. Again, good, but just… so flat compared to the epicness I expected (and that something like this deserved). I just don’t feel like it was treated right. It was weirdly random and off-point. The Wicked Witch? Yeah, not scary. The whole “being trapped together” thing and the way the Witch and Dorothy were set free? Contrived, bordering on stupid.

The key to Oz? Where did that even come from? It felt so random.

I did like the concept and the Witch taking over Sam and Dean was really cool (not to mention that garage! All those drool worthy cars…). Charlie is always a welcome character and I was glad she got to kick butt again…

But then there’s the whole Witch-Killing-Charlie thing that served no purpose and just felt like forced drama. I mean, really, if you’re going to just bring her back, there’s NO POINT in killing her off. None. It was stupid. Not to mention it was the second episode in a row to kill a character and bring them back. It might not have bothered me so much had we not just had Zeke resurrect Castiel in the episode directly prior to it.

And then there’s Dorothy…

First, I love the idea of Dorothy being a Hunter and her father a Man of Letters and the idea that the books were written to tell her story (and were slight biased, explaining the misinformation). I really adored the idea of kick-ass Dorothy killing witches and fighting the good fight in Oz.

Except… Dorothy didn’t do a whole lot of kicking ass. In fact, she didn’t do really much at all except talk. Her fight with Sam and Dean while they were under the spell was pathetic and that was her chance to really shine and show how badass she could be and she just… stood there. I mean, come on, Dorothy, stop posing in the fighting-stance and kick some Winchester ass! That’s what I wanted to see and I was so upset that it didn’t happen.

Honestly, the episode was just… mediocre and sort of meandering and weird. Still good, but too flawed for something I wanted to be epic.

There was one cool thing about the episode though. Charlie admitting she’d been hunting and her realization that it wasn’t magical – because it isn’t and I loved her wanting it to be. But that’s okay, because she went to Oz with Dorothy and they’re totally going to get married by Glenda in Munchkin Land and it’ll be spectacular!

My issues with the Oz episode aside, this season has been really good so far. Really good. Fantastic and epic in some places. Plodding, but still satisfying in others. And “Heaven Can’t Wait” made up for much of the disappointment of “Slumber Party” by being amazing, intriguing and having Cas sing to a sick baby, which was adorable.

Sorry I wasn’t able to post after the episode aired last night. My home internet is wonky at the best of times and the laptop I’m currently using sucks. Still, I did want to do a post on the episode since it’s the season opener and is meant to set the tone for the entire season and so here it is, a bit late, but ah well.

To start off, I loved the episode. I mean, I cried a lot and I yelled a lot, but that’s par for course with Supernatural so I’m not complaining and I think everyone did a phenominal job with the episode and I am so excited for this season and where it’s going!

Now, on to my thoughts…

Sam:

God. Sam made me sob this episode. I mean, pretty much everyone did, but I mean… just Sam. I can’t even begin to tell you how my heart started breaking when Bobby showed up in the Impala and him and Dean started arguing about whether or not Sam should just give up and Sam kept leaning toward giving up.

That scene with Death where Sam wants to make sure he can never be brought back hit me hard, especially. I mean, Sam and Dean have been through Hell and back (literally) and I know that wears on them and it’s enough to break anyone, but when he said that, when he basically just decided “This is it. I can’t go on. No more fighting, just let me be dead,” well, part of me broke.

I actually go a little angry at Dean for not letting him rest, because much as I love them and the show and Dean’s devotion to Sam, the fact is that Sam was ready to let go and Dean just refused to accept it (which is heartbreaking in itself) and I can’t figure out if he was wrong to try so hard to help Sam or not.

Dean:

Where to begin? With that horrible, angst ridden prayer? With the desperation eking out of his every action? With him going to Crowley to maybe make a deal to fix Sam?

With him killing Bobby in Sam’s head (though, I am aware that technically that Dean was part of Sam – he was pretty much Dean so, yeah)? Or maybe with him letting Ezekiel possess Sam to fix him under false pretenses, basically tricking Sam into it? God, Dean must’ve been pretty damn desperate to do that and it still kind of pissed me off.

I know he doesn’t want Sam to die and I know he loves Sam and I know he couldn’t bear to lose his brother and he’s just doing what he thinks is best, but God, Dean, could you pick a more awful way to do it? I mean, I want to trust Ezekiel and he seems freaking awesome thus far, but still. This is Sam’s life and Sam’s body and Sam’s mind and Dean’s going around making these choices.

He sort of gave Sam a choice, but he knew it wasn’t really a choice. I don’t want to sound like I’m bitching here, because I’m really not, it’s just that I can already bet there is going to be major fireworks over this later because when Sam figures out what happened… Dean is in deep shit.

But Dean still broke my heart and was so badass and so, well, Dean. I can’t help but want to hug him and say it’s okay and everything will be alright, even if it won’t.

Castiel:

*clears throat*

HE TOOK OFF THE TRENCH COAT! HE *TOOK OFF* THE FUCKING TRENCHING COAT!

Ahem.

I knew that was coming and it still managed to upset me more than nearly everything else this entire episode.

I gotta say, Cas’s determination to do the right thing and help the angels and fix this mess, it’s just so very him. I love that it actually took him a while to piece together the things that are going to be different for him now that he’s human and has all the problems that go along with that.

Particularly that scene where he first realizes he’s hurt. That made me teary. Poor Cas. He’s been run through the ringer so many times, always for trying to do the right thing, and now most of the angels hate him even more and are trying to kill him.

And even as lost and broken as he was, Cas still managed to be totally badass and prove that despite being human, he’s still a warrior and fucking with him is a bad idea. I am so excited for the Cas story arc this season (minus the love interest, which I remain dubious about until I see if they pulled it off..)

Bobby:

You have no idea how I squeed when Bobby showed up. I was so excited and I almost jumped off my bed. I was so glad to see him again and so glad that he showed up in Sam’s mind to try and talk him into being rational and doing what needs to be done.

Though it does strike me as odd that Bobby was the one telling Sam to move on and let go when Bobby seems to have a lot of trouble with that – he sure as hell didn’t want to let go any of the times he was supposed to. But I suppose he did learn (after the trouble that happened with him as a ghost) that letting go is kind of really important… I was just thrilled to have him back.

(And, again, I almost screamed when Dean killed him…)

And finally…

Ezekiel:

How totally awesome was Ezekiel guys? Oh my god, I think I’m in love with another angel. And that’s something I don’t say often seeing how I hate all but like, three of them.

Tahmoh Penikett was amazing. Seriously amazing. I’m not kidding, guys. I loved Ezekiel so much and I wanna rewatch the episode just for him.

HOWEVER, I am so, so wary to trust this character. I want to, I really, really do, but SPN has a history of introducing character and then them turning out to be totally evil and so I’m really not sure. He’s an angel and he’s now possessing Sam. That could be disastorous if he isn’t trustworthy. That could be terrible.

So I want to trust him, but i’m scared to because what if I get my heart ripped out AGAIN?

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But anyway, that’s just some of my thoughts on the episode. I’m so excited for the rest of this season to see how everything pans out!

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Get excited everyone! Supernatural‘s ninth season starts tonight at nine! (At least here in the US – I’m not sure about airing times outside the country). The first episode is titled, “I Think I’m Gonna Like It Here” and I am so excited I can hardly wait. Lucky me I’ve got some essays to write to distract me and give me things to do.

If I had a more reliable internet connection (and my personal laptop wasn’t out of commission) I’d promise a post later tonight (midnight my time so that everyone should get a chance to see the episode) about my thoughts – nothing long or fancy, of course, just a few words on my reaction. However, I’m honestly not sure if I’ll be able to and my thoughts might have to wait ’til Thursday. I will try though.

I’m just so glad to finally get back to Sam and Dean. (And Cas!) I’ve been watching season 8 on my DVDs and the special features and commentaries and it is just not enough. Pretty much every fandom I’m a part of (except Doctor Who and Sherlock and Hannibal) have already started their new seasons – I’ve just been waiting (im)patiently for SPN to get back so I can find out what the heck is happening.

But now all that waiting is (nearly) over and we’re just a few hours away from the premier episode!

To get you guys pumped, here’s a clip from tonight’s episode!

So I recently (VERY recently, as in, about two hours ago) was browsing through my FB news feed when I noticed a post on one of the SPN pages I like saying that Castiel is going to have a new love interest. Naturally, I thought it was a joke or they were misinformed because why would the writers and producers ever think to give Castiel – the loveably oblivious, decidedly asexual and nerdy angel – a LOVE INTEREST?

Well, I found the this link here and a few others that confirm that this is indeed true.

Not only are they giving Cas a love interest, but she is a fellow fallen angel.

Now, part of me is incredibly upset about this and part of me is trying very, very hard to remain open-minded and at least partially intrigued.

I think it’s a wonderful that they’re going to explore how being mortal (essentially human, though I’m not sure you can really call Cas human) will affect Cas. He certainly wasn’t happy about it in season 5 when he began losing his powers and (eventually) became completely powerless.

It’ll be interesting to watch him adjust and learn new things and adapt to this situation.

But, I really don’t see how or why a romantic interest is going to fit in. I’ve already made my feelings about romance in Supernatural fairly clear before , so maybe I’m being biased here due to my lack of interest in romance at all on any level.

I really want to be optimistic. It’s just that I’ve given SPN the benefit of the doubt before and they really fail to deliver in the area of romance and love interests. I tried so hard to like Amelia, I withheld judgement on her until I was just about ready shoot her in the face before I declared that I hated her.

The show consistently lets me down in this area and it just doesn’t help matters one little bit that the character they’re giving a romantic subplot this season is CASTIEL. An angel.

And yes, I understand that he’s human (or human enough) now and will be experiencing emotions he probably hasn’t and hormone and all that jazz. That doesn’t mean his entire mindset, beliefs and ideals will change. Cas is uncomfortable at best about the idea of romance and he’s clueless and adorably dorky about it.

Not to mention that his love interest is going to be an angel. I talked a bit with a friend and we do seem to agree that technically this isn’t squicky incest since angels aren’t blood related – like us humans – and though they call one another family, it’s been shown that not all angels even know each other personally, so I’ll try to look past this (for now).

I really have no faith in this. Even if they have a kick ass actress (Shannon Lucio has been cast in the part and while I don’t recall having ever seen anything she’s been in, I was certainly looking forward to Agents of SHIELD, which she is in) and a kick ass character, it just doesn’t seem likely to work.

 The fact that SPN rarely gives us dynamic and interesting female leads doesn’t bode well, but I will say that I’m at least happy she’s not going to be some beautiful, perfect human woman. I couldn’t take that.

So, I’m going to suspend my judgement for the moment, I suppose. I’m giving you ONE MORE CHANCE to change my opinion on the writers’ ability to write romance, Supernatural. Please don’t screw this up. Please. Because I swear, if you give us another Amelia I will explode rage all over the entire internet. I will not stand for another Amelia.

 Of course, I could be (and really hope I am) overreacting. Maybe this girl will be awesome. Maybe I’m still sore over Meg and the utter destruction of Megstiel (because, really, who didn’t cry when Meg told Sam to save her unicorn?). Maybe I’m just being pessimistic and this will all work out for the best.

I really do hope so. I’m not wishing doom and gloom and more Mary-Sues onto this fandom. I want this to be awesome. The question, however, is whether the writers are capable of making it awesome.

We shall see.

Now that I’ve had some time to recover I think it’s time to take a look back at season 8… (Note that when I say “recover” I mostly just mean I ran out of tears. I’m still reeling from the finale)

I can say honestly that season 8 is my new favorite season. I admit, there are aspects of it that I am still not happy with (like, say, Amelia) but all the same, it was a brilliant, heartbreaking, turbulent rollercoaster ride of awesomeness and badassery like we haven’t really seen in a while.

I have never not loved Supernatural, but I will admit that season 6 was a bit of a mess story-wise and season 7 (while wonderful) had more than its share of moments that made me wanna punch things. (Of course, if we’re looking at all the seasons, nothing in the show is worse than season 3…)

Anyway, this season really took the show somewhere new and also brought back some of the old spark that was the reason I fell in love with it in the first place.

Specifically, I’m talking about Sam and Dean and their relationship.

I don’t know if anyone noticed, but after season 5, Sam and Dean didn’t seem as close. Not that they didn’t care about each other, but there were less brother moments, there was more tension and fighting and very little of the brotherly banter in the first few seasons.

But this season really delivered on the Brotherly Love scale. We got to see Sam and Dean like they haven’t been in a long time. Sure, they were fighting (especially in the beginning when Dean was angry at Sam for not looking for him in Purgatory) but they still looked out for each other and their love for each other really became the focus of the season like it hasn’t been in far too long.

Sam’s struggle with the trials, Dean’s struggle to be there for him even when he couldn’t really do anything about what was going on really reminded me a lot of season 2, when they were freaked out about what was happening to Sam because of the YED.

And the finale… Oh god, the scene where Sam tells Dean about his biggest sin. You guys, I was crying buckets. It was so heartbreaking and so beautiful and it really was just so perfect. I was so happy they had that scene because they needed that scene. The last couple of seasons didn’t give us those kinds of scenes like they used to.

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: Supernatural never fails to surprise me. Just when I think I have things figured out, they change the rules on me.

I was sure that the trials would kill Sam. I was sure of it like I haven’t been sure of anything in a long time. And the worst part is, I was right, but Sam still didn’t die. I totally expected Sam to die in the finale and I have to say and I was pleasantly surprised that not one of the main characters died. We still have Sam, Dean AND Cas.

I said I wanted them to do something different for the finale this year and they did. And I truly loved it even though I’m still freaking out and the fall seems so very far away. I wanna know what happens next NOW.

I was also absolutely certain Naomi would die in the finale – I refused to accept that she would live to go to season 9. I said before that I didn’t even care who killed her or how she died so long as she did and yet again, Supernatural went and changed things on me.

Naomi had to go and apologize and act reasonable and warn them about the danger they were in. THEN they kill her. After she reveals herself to not be a total bitch, they have Metatron shove a drill in her skull.

Not only that, but I trusted Metatron, damn it. I was a bit wary, but I never thought I had anything to actually worry about. I should have listened to my own advice. I always say that you should never trust or like any new character on the show because they always, always turn evil and/or die. ALWAYS.

Supernatural is why I have trust issues.

The story line of this season was just brilliant. The episodes were brilliant. Everything was just brilliant. There was only one not-quite-brilliant-but-still-good episode this season and the only reason I didn’t love that episode was because it’s a crime to have an SPN episode with so little Sam and Dean.

I’m not exaggerating when I say I think this season is the best one yet. The acting, the stories, the cast, the directing, everything was brilliant. It was emotional, it was visceral, it was beautiful and painful and terrifically wonderful.

I only have one concern and that is this: Crowley. They did not finish curing Crowley. Does this mean he will go back to being his demonic self or did the purified blood change him too much? If he does go back to be a demon, will he escape or will Sam and Dean kill him before he can? He’s still chained up in the church. Does he get away? Did they just leave him in there? I’m very, very concerned about the Crowley storyline. I don’t want Crowley to go away just yet.

Also, I’m very interested to see if Abaddon comes back. She smoked out of the body she was in so it’s entirely possible.
And I am extremely anxious to see how they fix the fallen angel problem. (Did anyone else thing it was really beautiful in a depressing way watching all the angels fall?) How are they going to fix thousands of angels thrown out of Heaven? How are they going to solve this one? Are they going to kill Metatron?

I can’t wait to see Sam and Dean and Cas reunited again, working to fix this. I am dying for season 9 already.

Seriously. Why isn’t it Fall yet?

As we prepare for tonight’s episode (Sacrifice, 8×23) of Supernatural I figured I might as well say a few things about my expectations for the episode before I get my heart ripped out and am unable to do anything but choke on my own tears. Besides, maybe if I talk my way through it before the episode, I won’t be catatonic by the end of it…

So, here are a few of my thoughts on what I expect to happen and what I want to happen tonight:

Curing Crowley:

I cannot stress enough how much I do not want this to happen. Crowley having his humanity restored would be even worse than killing him outright. You take away the badass, ruthless demon and Crowley won’t be half as awesome as he is. I couldn’t take that. I’d rather he just be killed. My hope is that Sam and Dean won’t be able to curse him because Abaddon will burst in before they can. (That’s what I think will happen from the promo at least).

I’d much rather Abaddon kill Crowley than Sam and Dean cure him. I mean, I don’t want him to die, but if it’s a choice between the two then you can bet your ass I’d rather see him dead.

Sealing off Hell:

Again, this is something I am vehemently against. I just don’t want them to be successful here. It’s not like I’m rooting for the bad guys (though, with the generally awesome cast of baddies on SPN, that’s not necessarily a bad thing…), but I just can’t figure out how they’d even have a show anymore with Hell sealed off.

It would mean the end of Crowley, which is enough for me to hate it. But it would also effectively destroy any chance of most of the major villains from the series ever coming back or for them to have anywhere near the same level of badassery.

Let’s face it, the demons are their best villains. The Leviathan just pissed me off and while the angels were total dickbags, only Lucifer really lived up to the same level of awesome as their demon villains.

Meg, Azazel, Abaddon, Crowley… They’re the kind of bad guys that this show needs and closing the Gates of Hell would destroy their cast of villains. We’d be stuck with fucking Naomi and no one wants that. No one.

So I want Sam and Dean to lose this one, for the sake of the show. They cannot win. If they do close the Gates of Hell, I expect there to be severe backlash. Like, opening the Cage and freeing Lucifer backlash.

Sealing off Heaven:

This, however, I’m not so against. I will admit, I’m very nervous about these trials Cas is going to have to do. And a friend pointed out that Metatron could very well be hiding something. And given that he’s an angel, there’s likely some unknown agenda there. But still, I really love the idea of slamming the Pearly Gates shut. Plus, the way Metatron talked, it seems like a non-permanent solution so the Gates could be opened again.

It seems like a sound solution for getting thing in Heaven back in order. They need it. Things have been insanely chaotic up there since season 5. And they seem to be getting worse. It’s a sad, sad day when Hell is more organized than Heaven.

Killing Naomi:

Okay… I want this so bad. I just really want Naomi to die. I don’t even care who kills her, I just want to see her dead. I’d prefer for Cas to do it, but I honestly don’t care if it’s Crowley or Dean or Sam… Hell, it could be some nameless angel or demon. I don’t give a fuck, just stab the bitch in the face and put us out of our misery.

The “Sacrifice”:

I’ve already talked a bit about my thoughts on the episode title and what it could mean. I think I’d love for the sacrifice in question to be Sam giving his life up – I’d never, ever forgive them, however, if it’s Dean again. Dean died last season, don’t kill him again.

Besides, the state Sam’s in… he’s not gonna live through this one, I don’t think. It horrifies me, because as you should know I’m a total SamGirl, but it’s not like he’ll be dead permanently. So I’d be okay with it.

I wouldn’t be okay with Cas dying again. I want them to cut Cas a break. Oddly enough, I never want them to cut Sam and Dean a break, but with Cas… damn it, stop picking on him! He’s been through enough. Poor, nerdy little badass warrior of God.

My random, totally-not-gonna-happen-but-dear-Lucifer-if-it-did-theory: The “sacrifice” is Amelia. Sam has to kill Amelia. And he does. Sure, it’ll scar him psychologically, but he spent nearly 200 years in Hell and seems relatively fine now. He’ll get over it. Just kill Amelia and I won’t complain about anything else that happens.

Dean and Cas:

It’s not what you think, I swear. While I totally ship Destiel, I seriously doubt it’ll happen outside of fanfiction and fanvids. No, what I’m talking about is how Dean was a total dick last Wednesday for no reason and Cas clearly was trying to make it up to Dean so what I want, more than anything, from tonight’s finale is for Dean to forgive Cas. And hug him.

I want a Dean/Cas hug, damn it. Cas deserves to be forgiving. I wouldn’t blame Cas if he punched Dean in the face for being such an ass to him.

And, if we can’t get Dean and Cas hugging, can Sam hug him? Please? Because Sam hasn’t hugged Cas and Cas needs a hug, damn it! Someone just hug Cas!

Crowley’s Victims:

So… I’ve been thinking about this. Crowley read Chuck’s books. (And apparently, Chuck has been publishing them again since Crowley knew about Jenny – who was from season 7 – and Charlie knew Sam and Dean saved the world – something they didn’t do until season 5.) And Crowley’s been using the books to find victims…

I know it’s unlikely, if not impossible, but this is just a short list of who I think he should have gone/should go after:

Cassie – Dean’s ex from the racist truck episode, “Route 666

Lucas – the little boy they saved in “Dead in the Water

Michael and/or Asher – the two little boys they saved in “Something Wicked

Tyler – the little girl from “Playthings

Tara – the actress from “Hollywood Babylon

Matt – the kid from “Bugs” (yes, I realize the same actor played Samandriel… but still, it could work!)

Lori – the girl from “Hook Man

Yes, I am aware that there are several children on this list. But if Crowley’s going all out, he might as well. Plus, the kids would be older now. Also, I tried to include more people that Sam connected with… but they all seem to be dead so really, Matt and Lori are all I can think off. Anyway.

I think that’s pretty much everything. I still don’t feel an less anxious about the finale, but hey, maybe I won’t drown on my own tears tonight.

*bursts out laughing*

Yeah right. I’m screwed. Oh well. Time to go prepare my emo corner for when the episode is over. I’ve got a lot of sobbing ahead of me, I think.

After last Wednesday’s episode (Clip Show, 8×22) I got to thinking about Sam and Dean and Cas and Dean and Cas and Sam and their relationships and the way that they relate to each other.

I’ve always thought Sam was more forgiving to Cas because, well, he gets it. And I’ve noticed some interesting parallels in their character arcs, but that last episode really made me look at them a bit closer.

Cas and Sam have both been through very similar situations.

Sam trusted a demon (Ruby), wrongly, to help him kill Lilith. While Ruby did, ultimately, help Sam kill Lilith, killing Lilith set about a whole, horrible aftermath (Lucifer’s Cage was opened) and Dean placed the blame almost entirely on Sam for betraying him by trusting Ruby. Sam, being Sam, felt horribly guilty and eventually made the ultimate sacrifice to right his wrong, by jumping into the Cage with Lucifer to put a stop to Armageddon. He was (or at least his soul was) in Hell for a year and a half earth-time, 180 years Hell-time.

Now, let’s look at Cas:

Cas trusted a demon (Crowley), wrongly, to help him open Purgatory. While Crowley did help Cas open Purgatory, opening Purgatory set about a whole, horribly aftermath (the Leviathan were released into the world) and Dean placed the blame almost entirely on Cas for betraying him by trusting Crowley. Cas, being Cas, felt horribly guilty and eventually made the ultimate sacrifice to right his wrong, by taking on Sam’s insanity and brokenness, driving himself insane to save Sam from certain death. He later ends up sucked into Purgatory for a year because he helped Sam and Dean stop Dick Roman (the head of the Leviathan).

When I put it like that, it’s almost impossible not to see why Sam relates so strongly to Cas and why he defends him every single time Cas makes a (completely honest) mistake.

Let’s go a bit deeper though.

What were their motives for trusting Ruby and Crowley? What were their intentions?

Well, Sam wanted to kill Lilith, an evil demon who not only dragged Dean into Hell, but who was actively breaking seals to open Lucifer’s Cage. Sam had no way of knowing Lilith was the final seal. His intentions remained, always, in the right.

Cas made his deal with Crowley because Raphael was waging war in Heaven and he was losing. If Raphael won, he would open the Cage, once more releasing Lucifer and starting the Apocalypse all over again. He needed the souls in Purgatory to give him enough power to defeat Raphael. He had no way of knowing that opening Purgatory would unleash the Leviathan.

Even more interesting, think about this: Pride comes before the fall.

Sam was, near the end of season four and his time with Ruby, addicted to demon’s blood and the power it gave him. He felt invincible, powerful. Stronger than Dean and capable of doing anything. He didn’t only want to kill Lilith – he wanted to show Dean that he was not weak. He wanted to prove something to himself and to Dean. He thought he didn’t need Dean, he thought he didn’t need help and he wanted to do it on his own. He became, basically, prideful, self-righteous and power-hungry. It all culminated in the fight between Sam and Dean and Sam actually having demon-black eyes as he killed Lilith and let the demon’s blood consume him.

Cas was, near the end of season six and his deal with Crowley, becoming just as self-righteous, if not more. He wanted to defeat Raphael, not just to stop Armageddon from happening again but also to prove that he was strong enough to lead the Heavenly Host. He was prideful, he was power-hungry and he let that power go to his head, which resulting in the terrifying God!Cas.

And there are even more parallels in their story lines, involving Dean’s reaction this time.

Dean was adamantly against Sam trusting Ruby. It was a bad idea and he knew it and he was entirely unhappy with it. He felt betrayed and he was angry. However, in the following season, Dean works with Crowley to stop Lucifer in spite of Sam insisting that doing was exactly like what he did with Ruby. You cannot trust demons, according to Dean. Not unless he decides it’s okay.

Dean was vehemently against Cas working with Crowley in season six, going so far as to basically disown Cas for doing so and seeing his involvement and lies as the ultimate betrayal. He was pissed and angry and pretty much told Cas he never wanted to see him again. However, the following season, when they were trying to deal with God!Cas, he is the one who suggested that they go to Crowley for help, which was exactly what he disowned Cas for! Again, it’s only okay to trust demons when Dean says so.

Both Sam and Cas have consistently made mistakes for all the right reasons. They were trying to stop powerful demons or powerful angels from unleashing Hell on earth. They were trying to do the right thing. They were trying to protect the people they care about. They fully took responsibility for their actions and sacrificed themselves as penance for their mistakes.

My point is, they’re very, very similar characters. Which is why, whenever Dean was acting like a total dick to Cas Wednesday night, Sam jumped to defend him.

Sam’s always seem the shades of grey in the world. He wants to see the good in everyone, especially someone like Cas who really was only doing the right thing. Sam, unlike Dean, will take into consideration the motivations and intentions behind someone’s actions.

Dean sees betrayal as betrayal. Everything is black and white. Monsters are evil and deserve to die. People who lie to him, hurt him or don’t trust him when he thinks he should be trusted are simply wrong. He adopted that view from John. John raised them to see the world that way, but Sam, in his stubborn need to not be like John, chose to see it different, while Dean, in his desperate need for John’s approval, chose to see it exactly like that.

I’ve noticed, over the seasons, that they’ve both reached a more middle ground. Sam’s less trusting and less optimistic and, especially lately, Dean’s become more willing to accept the shades of grey he usually refuses to see.

But when it comes to family and friends, he’s still stubborn because family means so much and loyalty means so much that every betrayal hurts. It leaves scars and Dean already has such a low opinion of himself that each breach of trust just cracks his sheild even more. So he reacts viscerally, with anger and violence and unbending stubbornness. And Sam, who’s been where Cas is and sees things from his point of view, reacts with understanding, compassion and open-mindedness.

I just hope Dean’s progress on the road to being more open-minded will continue, because this time I really feel his anger isn’t all the justified. He was so cold to Cas and Cas is trying so hard to do the right thing and to make it up to Dean… I know as a viewer I have a more objective eye on the characters’ motivations and actions, but really, Dean knows about Naomi so I don’t get why he was so angry at Cas. I really want him to lay off the poor guy a bit because Cas doesn’t deserve this and, much as I love Dean, no one really ever calls him out on his hypocrisy and bad attitude.

…So, somehow this post became really analytical feeling. *shrugs* Oh well. The point is, I get why Sam is always defending Cas, I get why Dean gets so angry and I get why Cas does what he does the way he does it.

And also… I am terrified of next Wednesday’s episode. *grabs tissues* I am not going to come out it in one piece.

Obviously, this post contains SPOILERS for Supernatural episode 8×22, “Clip Show”

You have been warned.

(this post was written as the episode was airing so… you get my reactions as it happened! Yay for you!)

You know what I’m gonna do about tonight’s episode? I’M GONNA FREAK THE FUCK OUT BECAUSE HOLY SHIT WHAT ARE THEY TRYING TO DO TO ME??

*deep breath*

Okay. Now, let’s get on with this.

The opening scene made me jump a bit and I just kind of covered my mouth saying “But I liked Tommy!” over and over. Come on! I remember that guy! I was happy when they saved him because I didn’t think that they’d be able to and HE JUST GOT KILLED!? No. Not cool. So wrong.

Also… how in hell did Crowley kill him that way? What the hell did he do? For a second I thought an angel was killing him, but there was no bright light so, nope.

*frustration*

Why is Dean being an ass to Cas? What the hell did Cas do to make him act like such a dick? Argh, Dean, you’re pushing me to throw things. I don’t like this. Stop being an ass. Seriously. Stop.

Also, “Weird!!!” huh? Well, that sounds like the Winchesters. This whole “curing a demon” thing is AWESOME. Like, horribly awesome in every way and I am so excited to see this in action I cannot wait.

Also, you may or may not remember that I have a “Winchesters I Wanna Punch in the Face” list, right? And that Sam was on it very recently for lying about this sickness thing and insisting he was fine? Well, Sam’s seeing logic and standing up for Cas because DAMN IT DEAN STOP BEING A DICK!!! Sam’s off the list. He’s good.

Dean is not. Not until he stops being a dick to Cas.

Cas shopping is like, the most adorable thing ever. He’s trying so hard to make things up to Dean (never mind that NAOMI IS RESPONSIBLE FOR MOST OF HIS BEHAVIOR) I loved his “I NEED PIE!” line. It was so adorable.

And then Metatron showing up. Gah. Sorry, I mean, Marv. Anyway. I’m in love with this guy and his plan to shut the angels up in Heaven and make them work together, but these trials are freaking me out a bit. I don’t want Cas to cut this girl’s heart out I just… *chews lip* I’m so conflicted. This sounds like a brilliant idea but… I don’t like the trial. It scares me.

However, I loved them talking about the angels like a dysfunctional family in need of serious help. Family therapy maybe? As long as Naomi the Evil Bitch dies, I don’t care how they fix it.

Yay! Abaddon’s back! I loved her so much! Her line about wanting to rip out their pretty eyes made me giggle and I blame my friend Beronica entirely (her obsession with eyes is wearing off on me. I don’t like this, Beronica. You’re making me seem even more twisted than I usually am). But seriously, they do have gorgeous eyes.

Ah, then Crowley calls and I really shouldn’t have been so happy about that. But he’s Crowley! And he’s totally awesome. And… He’s reading Chuck’s books too?!?!? Damn it, those books are getting mileage aren’t they?

AW HE KILLED JENNY!! Goddamn it, Crowley. I liked her too. *pout*

Ooh, Yay! Sarah!! Sarah’s back! I’M SO HAPPY TO SEE SARAH! LIKE YOU CAN’T EVEN BELIEVE HOW HAPPY I AM TO SEE SARAH THIS IS SO FUCKING AWSOME! SARAH’S BACK!!

Aw man… I really don’t want Cas to kill this chick, but… Wait. Shit, she’s beating the hell out of them. Kill her, Cas, I don’t care anymore. Gut her if you have to. Good job, Cas! 🙂

And we’re back with Sarah. I swear, if she dies… You two better keep her safe, Sam and Dean. God, she’s so good at keeping her emotions in check. I love this chick. She had better not die. I will scream.

Yay! Sarah’s married! And has kids. I hate to say that this relieves me, ‘cos I loved her with Sam, but I really don’t want Sam to have another relationship right now. Even with someone as awesome as Sarah.

Oh fuck. She asked about him. *don’t mention Amelia. Don’t mention Amelia. DON’T MENTION AMELIA* *phew* He didn’t mention Amelia and Sarah’s still being awesome about – DON’T INSULT SAM’S HAIR SARAH! I love Sam’s hair.

SAVE HER. OH GOD DAMN IT. SAVE HER. SAVE HER!!! God damn it, SAVE HER!! *sobbing* Save her!! DON’T YOU DARE LET HER DIE!! DON’T LET HER DIE!!! DON’T YOU DARE LET HER DIE.

Shut up Crowley! SHUT UP!! Save her!! God damn it, SAVE HER!!!

*sobbing*

NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

Crowley… *sobs* H-How could you?!?!? I can’t even… *sobs*

I hate this show so fucking much sometimes.

*choking on sobs*

D-Don’t even think about taking the deal, Sam. Don’t. It’s horrible. Please don’t. I hate watching people die too, but, this is CROWLEY. You know this is a bad idea. Plus, you’re fucking dying right now. You gotta finish the trials so that you can get better. I have a horrible suspicious that you’ll die, but you’ve done that before and since there’s a season 9 I know you’ll come back and…

I can’t do this. I hurt too much. Goddamn it, Supernatural, I knew I shouldn’t have hoped for better from you, but really, you could’ve let this one go. You could’ve let them save Sarah. YOU DIDN’T HAVE TO HURT ME ALL OVER AGAIN YOU ASSHOLES.

*sobs*

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Thoughts on the PROMO:

HOLY SHIT THEY’RE GONNA TRY TO CURE CROWLEY? WHAT? WHAT THE HELL?? *explodes*