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Sorry I wasn’t able to post after the episode aired last night. My home internet is wonky at the best of times and the laptop I’m currently using sucks. Still, I did want to do a post on the episode since it’s the season opener and is meant to set the tone for the entire season and so here it is, a bit late, but ah well.

To start off, I loved the episode. I mean, I cried a lot and I yelled a lot, but that’s par for course with Supernatural so I’m not complaining and I think everyone did a phenominal job with the episode and I am so excited for this season and where it’s going!

Now, on to my thoughts…

Sam:

God. Sam made me sob this episode. I mean, pretty much everyone did, but I mean… just Sam. I can’t even begin to tell you how my heart started breaking when Bobby showed up in the Impala and him and Dean started arguing about whether or not Sam should just give up and Sam kept leaning toward giving up.

That scene with Death where Sam wants to make sure he can never be brought back hit me hard, especially. I mean, Sam and Dean have been through Hell and back (literally) and I know that wears on them and it’s enough to break anyone, but when he said that, when he basically just decided “This is it. I can’t go on. No more fighting, just let me be dead,” well, part of me broke.

I actually go a little angry at Dean for not letting him rest, because much as I love them and the show and Dean’s devotion to Sam, the fact is that Sam was ready to let go and Dean just refused to accept it (which is heartbreaking in itself) and I can’t figure out if he was wrong to try so hard to help Sam or not.

Dean:

Where to begin? With that horrible, angst ridden prayer? With the desperation eking out of his every action? With him going to Crowley to maybe make a deal to fix Sam?

With him killing Bobby in Sam’s head (though, I am aware that technically that Dean was part of Sam – he was pretty much Dean so, yeah)? Or maybe with him letting Ezekiel possess Sam to fix him under false pretenses, basically tricking Sam into it? God, Dean must’ve been pretty damn desperate to do that and it still kind of pissed me off.

I know he doesn’t want Sam to die and I know he loves Sam and I know he couldn’t bear to lose his brother and he’s just doing what he thinks is best, but God, Dean, could you pick a more awful way to do it? I mean, I want to trust Ezekiel and he seems freaking awesome thus far, but still. This is Sam’s life and Sam’s body and Sam’s mind and Dean’s going around making these choices.

He sort of gave Sam a choice, but he knew it wasn’t really a choice. I don’t want to sound like I’m bitching here, because I’m really not, it’s just that I can already bet there is going to be major fireworks over this later because when Sam figures out what happened… Dean is in deep shit.

But Dean still broke my heart and was so badass and so, well, Dean. I can’t help but want to hug him and say it’s okay and everything will be alright, even if it won’t.

Castiel:

*clears throat*

HE TOOK OFF THE TRENCH COAT! HE *TOOK OFF* THE FUCKING TRENCHING COAT!

Ahem.

I knew that was coming and it still managed to upset me more than nearly everything else this entire episode.

I gotta say, Cas’s determination to do the right thing and help the angels and fix this mess, it’s just so very him. I love that it actually took him a while to piece together the things that are going to be different for him now that he’s human and has all the problems that go along with that.

Particularly that scene where he first realizes he’s hurt. That made me teary. Poor Cas. He’s been run through the ringer so many times, always for trying to do the right thing, and now most of the angels hate him even more and are trying to kill him.

And even as lost and broken as he was, Cas still managed to be totally badass and prove that despite being human, he’s still a warrior and fucking with him is a bad idea. I am so excited for the Cas story arc this season (minus the love interest, which I remain dubious about until I see if they pulled it off..)

Bobby:

You have no idea how I squeed when Bobby showed up. I was so excited and I almost jumped off my bed. I was so glad to see him again and so glad that he showed up in Sam’s mind to try and talk him into being rational and doing what needs to be done.

Though it does strike me as odd that Bobby was the one telling Sam to move on and let go when Bobby seems to have a lot of trouble with that – he sure as hell didn’t want to let go any of the times he was supposed to. But I suppose he did learn (after the trouble that happened with him as a ghost) that letting go is kind of really important… I was just thrilled to have him back.

(And, again, I almost screamed when Dean killed him…)

And finally…

Ezekiel:

How totally awesome was Ezekiel guys? Oh my god, I think I’m in love with another angel. And that’s something I don’t say often seeing how I hate all but like, three of them.

Tahmoh Penikett was amazing. Seriously amazing. I’m not kidding, guys. I loved Ezekiel so much and I wanna rewatch the episode just for him.

HOWEVER, I am so, so wary to trust this character. I want to, I really, really do, but SPN has a history of introducing character and then them turning out to be totally evil and so I’m really not sure. He’s an angel and he’s now possessing Sam. That could be disastorous if he isn’t trustworthy. That could be terrible.

So I want to trust him, but i’m scared to because what if I get my heart ripped out AGAIN?

ezekiel

 

But anyway, that’s just some of my thoughts on the episode. I’m so excited for the rest of this season to see how everything pans out!

We now interrupt this program to discuss tonight’s episode of Supernatural, “Taxi Driver” So, you know, SPOILERS and all that shit…

Now… *clears throat*

I HATE THIS FUCKING SHOW. I HATE IT. I HAAAAAATE IT.

*deep breath*

Okay. Maybe now I can talk again.

Fucking Supernatural.

*sobs*

There are no words for what this show did to me tonight. I threw a remote at the TV. I seriously did. My remote is broken now. Because of this goddamn show. I hate this show, I hate the characters, my throat is hoarse from SCREAMING at the TV and EVERYTHING FUCKING HURTS.

And no, I will not apologize for how angry and broken this post is. I AM ANGRY AND BROKEN GODDAMN IT. Fuck. This show is EVIL.

I wonder if the writers realize that I’m already part of so many painful fandoms. There really is no need to try and rip out my heart. It’s already gone. IT’S GONE. BURNT TO ASHES. I DON’T HAVE EMOTIONS ANYMORE, THEY’RE ALL FUCKED UP IN A TANGLED KNOT OF PAIN.

Why would they do that? Kevin and his Crowley hallucinations… Crowley and his awesome badassery, Naomi and her STILL NOT FUCKING BEING DEAD-NESS.

I swear, the entire scene with her and Dean I just kept telling Dean to stab the bitch in the face. I don’t even care if it wouldn’t have killed her. I JUST WANT HER DEAD. WHY CAN’T SHE BE DEAD? WHY IS EVERYONE ELSE DYING BUT NAOMI IS STILL ALIVE.

Fucking Supernatural.

*deep breath*

I was prepared for feels, I was. I knew Bobby was coming back, Sam was going into Hell to get him… I knew I’d hurt, but… but THIS? Fuck no. THAT IS NOT OKAY. I DIDN’T SIGN UP FOR THIS. YOU CAN’T HURT ME LIKE THIS, SUPERNATURAL. IT’S NOT RIGHT.

*sobbing pathetically*

I loved the scene with Sam and Dean and the “freelance” Reaper. It was kind of awesome that he was a taxi driver. I really loved the scene with Dean talking to Kevin and buying him food and trying to keep him from freaking out and Kevin just walking back to his closet with Dean’s pie. That was hilarious and kinda cute.

But for the love of God, why weren’t Dean and Sam more worried about Kevin HEARING CROWLEY’S VOICE? That seems like a major fucking thing to be so passive about. “Oh you’re hearing Crowley in your head? Nah, I’m sure that’s nothing. Don’t worry.”

Seriously, guys? This is Crowley. Don’t you think you should’ve been a BIT more concerned when Kevin says he’s hearing his voice? Or any voices at all, since that means Kevin’s likely losing it and telling him to keep it together was some shitty advice, dudes. Come on, you’re smarter than that, aren’t you?

Whenever Dean realized Sam was trapped in Purgatory… And he called Benny again and I was so happy to see Benny. Then I got worried, because Benny was talking so FINAL, ya know? Like he was ready to die and didn’t have anything to live for and it broke my heart. Then he willingly let Dean kill him so he could save Sam and… I choked up. That was above and beyond the call of friendship right there. That was when I knew any lingering theories anyone has about Benny being evil were squashed.

And then… and then… *sobs*

I knew Bobby wouldn’t get to stay, but some small, foolishly hopeful part of me was clinging to the fact that maybe he could. Somehow, I still had hope, even after everything. And now it’s all crushed and ruined and GONE FOREVER. I hope you’re fucking happy, Supernatural. YOU KILLED MY HOPE. I didn’t even know I had any left and YOU KILLED IT.

I thought at least, since Bobby was going… Benny would get to stay and Sam would realize he could trust him and all would be good-ish even if I did cry watching it.

Then Benny started talking like he was ready to die AGAIN. And… and … then he saved them and helped Sam get to the portal and JUST DECIDED TO NOT GO. WHAT? BENNY, WHY? WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT? I screamed. I seriously screamed. It was at that point that I knew that this show is going to end with Crowley killing Sam and Dean and no one wins because after that, Naomi will kill Crowley and find Cas and torture him again and THAT IS WHAT I’M SEEING IN THE FUTURE NOW. THERE IS NO FUCKING HOPE. NAOMI’S GONNA WIN AND EVERYONE I LOVE WILL DIE AND FUCK YOU, SUPERNATURAL. FUCK YOU.

Why the hell did they have to kill Benny? WHY? WHAT ARE THEY TRYING TO DO? I loved Benny. Why couldn’t it have been Naomi? WHY IS BENNY DEAD AND NAOMI ISN’T? That’s not right. You can’t just kill people all willy-nilly, Supernatural. You just can’t. You fucking bastards. I HURT IN WAYS I DIDN’T KNOW I COULD HURT.

*sobs*

This is worse than “Swan Song”. This is worse than Meg dying. This is worse than John dying because now I know for sure that this is going nowhere. EVERYONE IS GOING TO LOSE. EVERYONE. I don’t have anything left. You’re ripping me apart piece by piece and I hate you because even though it all hurts and I threw things, I’ll still be there to watch the next episode. I’m like a hopeless addict, or a kicked puppy. I keep thinking “It can’t get WORSE.” And then it does.

*shuddering sobs*

I HATE EVERYTHING.

Basically… I got really, really bored and decided to give each character and a few of my favorite pairings a “theme song”, if you will. I made it a bit challenging by limiting myself to only songs from my iPod.

And here it is, along with a sample of lyrics that make me think of each character or pairing. If anyone has any other ideas, or maybe characters they’d like to see here let me know…

Show:

Supernatural: This is War – 30 Seconds to Mars / Carry on Wayward Son – Kansas

–      This is War:
“A warning, to the people,
The good and the evil
This is war,”

–      Carry on Wayward Son:

“Masquerading as a man with a reason
My charade is the event of the season
And if I claim to be a wise man,
It surely means that I don’t know”

Characters:

Sam Winchester: Innocent – Taylor Swift

–     “Did some things you can’t speak of
But at night you live it all again
You wouldn’t be shattered on the floor now
If only you had seen what you know now then…”

Castiel: Wide Awake – Katy Perry

–      “Thunder rumbling, castles crumbling
I am trying to hold on
God knows that I tried, seeing the bright side
I’m not blind anymore
I’m wide awake…”

Lucifer: Cowboy Casanova – Carrie Underwood

–      “He’s the devil in disguise
A snake with blue eyes,
And he only comes out a night
Gives you feelings that you don’t wanna fight
You better run for your life”

Dean Winchester: Citizen/Soldier – 3 Doors Down

–      “Hope and pray that you never need me
But rest assured I will not let you down
I walk beside you, but you may not see me
The strongest among you may not where a crown”

Bobby Singer: What About Me – Keith Urban

–      “Sometimes I can’t help thinking:
What about me?
Some days go by that I don’t even see
I’m doing everything right, and I can’t break free
Is this the way it’s always gonna be?
What about me?”

John Winchester: Stand – Rascal Flatts

–      “When push comes to shove, You taste what you’re made of
You might bend ’til you break, ‘Cause it’s all you can take
On your knees you look up, Decide you’ve had enough
You get mad, you get strong, Wipe your hands, shake it off,
Then you stand”

Adam Milligan: Ave Mary A – P!nk

–      “Of the chaos around me, The devil that hounds me
I need you tell me…Child be still
If the darkest hour comes, before the light
Where is the light? Where is the light?
If the darkest hour comes before the light
Where is the light? Where is the light? Where is the light?!”

Mary Winchester: Unknown Soldier – Breaking Benjamin

–      Full of fear, never clear
I’ll be here, fighting forever
Curious, venomous, you’ll find me
Climbing to Heaven
Never mind, turn back time
You’ll be fine
And I will get left behind”

Henry Winchester: I Am Human – Brian Buckley Band

–      ‘Cause one day I will speak my goodbyes
One day we will speak our goodbyes
One day I won’t run, I won’t hide
One day, one day…
‘Cause I am human, I am human…
I am human and I will let you down”

Gabriel: Hands Held High – Linkin Park

–      “Risk something, take back what’s yours
Say something that you know they might attack you for
‘Cause I’m sick of being treated like I have before,
Like it’s stupid standing for what I’m standing for
Like this wars really just a different brand of war”

Meg: Bad Kids – Lady Gaga

–      “I’m a bad kid and I will survive
Oh I’m a bad kid, don’t know wrong from right
I’m a bad kid and this is my life
Oh now the fact is, don’t know wrong from right”

Ruby: Welcome to Hollywood – Mitchel Musso

–      “I’m so glad I got to know you,
Now I know what I’m supposed to do
(You only think about you)
Friendly faces I’ve been seeing,
Now I know they’re far from being true
(You only think about you)”

Samuel Campbell: Had Enough – Breaking Benjamin

–      “You had to have it all,
Well have you had enough?
You greedy little bastard,
You will get what you deserve”

Crowley: For Your Entertainment – Adam Lambert

–      “I’m about to turn up the heat
It’s alright, you’ll be fine, Baby, I’m in control
Take the pain, take the pleasure I’m a master of both
Close your eyes, not your mind, let me into your soul”

Pairings:

Destiel: Brighter – Paramore

–      “Well this is not your fault
But if I’m without you, then I will feel so small
And if you have to go,
We’ll always know that you shine brighter
Than anyone does”

Samifer: Gonna Get Caught – Demi Lovato

–      “Don’t say, that you need me
And don’t play these games with my mind
You better get out of my head
‘Cause you’re wasting your time”

Dean/Lisa: Happy Ending – MIKA

–      “This is the hardest story,
That I’ve ever told
No hope, no love, no glory
Happy ending’s gone forevermore”

Sam/Jessica: What Hurts the Most – Rascal Flatts

–      “Still harder, getting up, getting dressed
Living with, this regret
But I know, if I could do it over,
I would trade, give away,
All the words that I’d saved,
In my heart, that I’d left unspoken”

John/Mary: Breathe – Taylor Swift

–      “And we know it’s never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You’re the only thing I know like the back of my hand
And I can’t breathe without you, but I have to
Breathe without you, but I have to”