Posts Tagged ‘SPN season 8’

Oh wow, look at that! I’m not dead. I’m really sorry for the extreme gap between posts. I haven’t been able to actually get on WordPress outside of a mobile device lately because my personal laptop is on the fritz. *sigh* That, and life is hectic. I just started a new semester (only one more to go!) and I’ve been writing (both fanfics and original work) and reading a LOT. Not to mention I started sporking City of Fallen Angels by Cassandra Clare last month on my FB and slogging through Jace’s bullshit is actually becoming painful.

But anyway. I actually have access to a computer (in campus computer lab) and I’m going to actually give you guys a post for a change! I know, I know. Shocking.

So today’s topic of discussion: Dean’s sexuality.

For the record, I personally believe that Dean Winchester is bisexual. Please note that I do not believe this simply because I’m an avid slash fan or a very proud Destiel shipper. I love Dean and Cas as friends and frankly, though I enjoy entertaining the thought that they’d have sexually romantic relationship, I’m not going to delude myself into thinking either of them would actually do that. That doesn’t change my thoughts on Dean’s sexuality, however. And I’m going to tell you why.

Many people who don’t believe that Dean is gay or bisexual cite Dean’s womanizing ways as proof of his heterosexuality. I’m going to use it for my own argument though.

Dean was raised in a very masculine environment, trained to do the things “real men” should do. John was a very strict military man and while he wasn’t in the marine corps. when Dean was growing up, he still held those ideals and convictions. I doubt Dean would ever feel comfortable admitting to himself, let alone his father, that he found men attractive. And so of course he would try to compensate for that, telling himself that of course he isn’t gay because he clearly likes women. It became a way for Dean to push down those others thoughts and feelings.

If you’ve noticed, in the earlier seasons Dean was very self-conscious and a lot of his self-worth was tied into what his father thought of him. He wouldn’t want to do anything to jeopardize his image in John’s eyes. He flirted with women, he had lots of random, casual sex with women and rarely had any fulfilling, committed relationships with women.

Dean hated himself. Let’s not argue about that, because it’s canon. He truly felt unworthy, unwanted or downright useless at times and there was a point where he believed he deserved to go to Hell. Questioning his sexuality, among the angst of trying to find himself outside of his father’s ideas, certainly would have added to that.

And since Dean’s return from Hell he’s expressed more romantic inclinations – like his relationship with Lisa. I personally think that Dean wanted that relationship to work more than anything. He put effort into it like he never really had in a romantic relationship and was content for a while, until it fell apart.

As the seasons have gone by and Dean’s learned to accept himself – though, clearly he still has some issues with his self-worth – he’s become more open. In the early years when someone suggested he was gay, Dean would make a smartass retort, turn it into a joke or balk at it disbelieving and wonder how they could think such a thing.

Now, as we saw in “Everybody Hates Hitler”, he is more awkward and sort of dorky as he tries to work his way through the situation of being flirted with by another man. He doesn’t make flippant remarks, immediately deny the accuse of him being gay. Instead, he acts very much like he does when he is flirting seriously. The way he acted with Aaron was very reminiscent of the way he acted around Cassie (season 1, “Route 666”) and Lisa throughout the early episodes of their relationship (mostly in season 3).

It feels very much like Dean is gradually beginning to come into himself. He has stopped seeing himself in terms of what his father (or Sam or Bobby or anyone else) would see him and has started to see himself just as who he is and who he wants to be. He’s happier with himself than he’s ever been – in spite of his belief that he is merely a “grunt”, he seems to have a healthier opinion of himself as a whole.

I could be reading more into this than is really there, but I truly hope that they continue to explore this side of Dean and his newfound confidence in himself. Even if it doesn’t lead to him coming to terms with his sexuality they way I believe he should, I do hope they’ll at least explore Dean’s self-worth and growing confidence in the coming season. It would certainly be an interesting arc.

We haven’t really gone too deep into Dean’s own personal feels in the last couple of seasons and nothing much about his self-worth (at least not at any great length) since season 3. I’d like for them to do that in season nine. Actually, I’d like to see more of that for Sam, Dean and Cas. Season eight did a wonderful job of setting up some very intriguing arcs for all of the characters and I hope that they don’t drop the ball on exploring them once season nine gets here.

Now that I’ve had some time to recover I think it’s time to take a look back at season 8… (Note that when I say “recover” I mostly just mean I ran out of tears. I’m still reeling from the finale)

I can say honestly that season 8 is my new favorite season. I admit, there are aspects of it that I am still not happy with (like, say, Amelia) but all the same, it was a brilliant, heartbreaking, turbulent rollercoaster ride of awesomeness and badassery like we haven’t really seen in a while.

I have never not loved Supernatural, but I will admit that season 6 was a bit of a mess story-wise and season 7 (while wonderful) had more than its share of moments that made me wanna punch things. (Of course, if we’re looking at all the seasons, nothing in the show is worse than season 3…)

Anyway, this season really took the show somewhere new and also brought back some of the old spark that was the reason I fell in love with it in the first place.

Specifically, I’m talking about Sam and Dean and their relationship.

I don’t know if anyone noticed, but after season 5, Sam and Dean didn’t seem as close. Not that they didn’t care about each other, but there were less brother moments, there was more tension and fighting and very little of the brotherly banter in the first few seasons.

But this season really delivered on the Brotherly Love scale. We got to see Sam and Dean like they haven’t been in a long time. Sure, they were fighting (especially in the beginning when Dean was angry at Sam for not looking for him in Purgatory) but they still looked out for each other and their love for each other really became the focus of the season like it hasn’t been in far too long.

Sam’s struggle with the trials, Dean’s struggle to be there for him even when he couldn’t really do anything about what was going on really reminded me a lot of season 2, when they were freaked out about what was happening to Sam because of the YED.

And the finale… Oh god, the scene where Sam tells Dean about his biggest sin. You guys, I was crying buckets. It was so heartbreaking and so beautiful and it really was just so perfect. I was so happy they had that scene because they needed that scene. The last couple of seasons didn’t give us those kinds of scenes like they used to.

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: Supernatural never fails to surprise me. Just when I think I have things figured out, they change the rules on me.

I was sure that the trials would kill Sam. I was sure of it like I haven’t been sure of anything in a long time. And the worst part is, I was right, but Sam still didn’t die. I totally expected Sam to die in the finale and I have to say and I was pleasantly surprised that not one of the main characters died. We still have Sam, Dean AND Cas.

I said I wanted them to do something different for the finale this year and they did. And I truly loved it even though I’m still freaking out and the fall seems so very far away. I wanna know what happens next NOW.

I was also absolutely certain Naomi would die in the finale – I refused to accept that she would live to go to season 9. I said before that I didn’t even care who killed her or how she died so long as she did and yet again, Supernatural went and changed things on me.

Naomi had to go and apologize and act reasonable and warn them about the danger they were in. THEN they kill her. After she reveals herself to not be a total bitch, they have Metatron shove a drill in her skull.

Not only that, but I trusted Metatron, damn it. I was a bit wary, but I never thought I had anything to actually worry about. I should have listened to my own advice. I always say that you should never trust or like any new character on the show because they always, always turn evil and/or die. ALWAYS.

Supernatural is why I have trust issues.

The story line of this season was just brilliant. The episodes were brilliant. Everything was just brilliant. There was only one not-quite-brilliant-but-still-good episode this season and the only reason I didn’t love that episode was because it’s a crime to have an SPN episode with so little Sam and Dean.

I’m not exaggerating when I say I think this season is the best one yet. The acting, the stories, the cast, the directing, everything was brilliant. It was emotional, it was visceral, it was beautiful and painful and terrifically wonderful.

I only have one concern and that is this: Crowley. They did not finish curing Crowley. Does this mean he will go back to being his demonic self or did the purified blood change him too much? If he does go back to be a demon, will he escape or will Sam and Dean kill him before he can? He’s still chained up in the church. Does he get away? Did they just leave him in there? I’m very, very concerned about the Crowley storyline. I don’t want Crowley to go away just yet.

Also, I’m very interested to see if Abaddon comes back. She smoked out of the body she was in so it’s entirely possible.
And I am extremely anxious to see how they fix the fallen angel problem. (Did anyone else thing it was really beautiful in a depressing way watching all the angels fall?) How are they going to fix thousands of angels thrown out of Heaven? How are they going to solve this one? Are they going to kill Metatron?

I can’t wait to see Sam and Dean and Cas reunited again, working to fix this. I am dying for season 9 already.

Seriously. Why isn’t it Fall yet?

So, last night/tonight’s SPN episode was amazing and we got to learn more about witches, which was very cool. Since I’m sick, but my medicine hasn’t allowed me to sleep yet, I decided to post a few thoughts on the episode here…

Maybe it’s because I just started reading the 2nd Dresden Files book, but I totally kept expecting Harry Dresden to show up, he would’ve fit perfectly into tonight’s episode. I mean, the SPN witches are very close to the Dresden Files witches and Harry being a Wizard and PI, it would make perfect sense for me him to show up. But that’s just my newest addiction bleeding through. Probably.

But in all seriousness, Harry would’ve been helpful and maybe it’s also my strange obsession with crossovers, but I can see it all so perfectly in my head. Come on, tell me it doesn’t make absolutely perfect sense. Anyway.

I loved getting to see into the witch community. We’ve never gotten to do that before and it was very interesting and I loved Portia and her interaction with Sam and Dean… Ah, Dean was so cute when he said “I like dogs,” and I was just shaking my head. Oh Dean. Don’t you ever change. (As a side note, I’m actually pretty damn proud of Dean for not once saying the word “bestiality” in the whole episode…)

I was actually shedding HAPPY tears at the end of this episode. Which, for SPN, is remarkable in and of itself. That’s hardly ever (if ever…) happened. But Dean calling Sam “Sammy” gets me every time and he’s done it a couple of times this season and it makes my heart swell and I just… Aw…

Also, going off on a bit of tangent, but… Sam’s confrontation with Dean about Dean not being able to trust anyone but himself… Okay, first, yeah, Sam’s probably right about that (though I think Dean wanting to protect Sam is a big motivational factor…) but I just was like… “Wait, I… I’m the exact same way. Are you… are you telling me wanting to do something yourself because you don’t trust anyone else to do it right is BAD? Shit…” Seriously. I end up doing shit I don’t want to do, simply because I don’t think anyone else can do it the way it’s supposed to be done. Is that really a bad thing?? I suppose maybe it is. Damn it. Anyway, moving on.

After Dean was all, “I DO trust you,” and everything, I was smiling and my eyes were watering from happy tears… Then Sam started coughing. At first, I was like “Oh look, Sam’s got the same damn flu I do…” Then blood came out of his mouth. And I was like “Shit. What the hell is that?” For half a second, I thought he was gonna say something to Dean, then he just wiped the blood away and was all “I’m good,” and I just screamed “YOU FUCKING LIAR!!”

What the fuck, Sam? What… How long have you been hiding this? What’s going on? Why won’t you tell Dean? I’M SO CONFUSED. Dude, Sam, you JUST got of my “Winchesters I Wanna Punch in the Face” list LAST episode. Now, Dean’s the one off the hook and you’re BACK ON IT. You couldn’t even go a couple of episodes without getting back on my list, could you? DAMN IT. I hate Winchesters. I just hate them. Except Adam. ‘Cos he certainly doesn’t deserve my hate.

That whole “coughing up blood” thing came out of freaking NOWHERE. There were no warning signs, no hints earlier in the episode that something was going on with Sam. Nothing to indicate that we should be suspicious or worry about him and then BAM. Sam’s coughing blood and NOT SAYING A DAMN THING ABOUT IT. What. The. Fuck?

I can’t even wrap my head around this. Is this a result of the “Trials” thing? Has this been happening and he just hasn’t said anything? Is he sick? Is he dying? Did someone put a spell on him? (Hah, actually, a friend came up with a hilarious crack!theory of Amelia being a witch and hexing him… Riot, the dog, was obviously Amelia’s familiar in this scenario… I love my friends.)

*sighs* I guess there really is no way for me to win with this damn show. Supernatural is determined to screw with my head until it explodes from the pressure of the constant mind fucks. Not to mention the emotional TORTURE that the show puts me through. Jeesh.

Remind me again why I watch this show? Oh, right. It’s awesome.

I should be institutionalized.

I was going on about the latest Supernatural episode to a friend (who does not watch the show) and halfway through my rather long-winded rant, she just stopped me and asked “Why do you care so much about these people? They aren’t real!”

(In case you’re wondering, she’s not a very GOOD friend…)

Anyway, it actually got me to thinking, because I do talk and talk and talk about these character and about how much it hurts when I see them hurt. Especially last Wednesday’s episode, with Dean giving his customary “I’m totally worthless,” speech again. Honestly, either I’m a masochist or I just have no soul because a sane person would not continue to put themselves in such a position to be hurt again and again.

After thinking (and thinking and thinking) I’ve decided that this show means quite a lot to me for many reasons. I am a fandom nerd, I admit it. I obsess over many fandoms, Supernatural is only one of them. However, it has become the one that I obsess over the most. It’s the one that hurts the most, the one that I get the most excited for and the one I spend the majority of my time annoying friends with.

The thing that attracted me to the show wasn’t the monsters and the fight scenes… It was the characters.

First it was Sam and Dean and their relationship with one another. Their bond, that Die-For-Each-Other love is what makes them so amazing. Those moments whenever I can watch them interacting and smiling and teasing each other…

There are those awful periods where Sam and Dean are fighting, and it just tears at my heart to see them at odds. I get the intense urge to grab then and throw them into a room, telling them they either hug and make up or they die. A lot of this season has had me screaming at my computer screen in anger because of their fighting. Thankfully, the latest episodes are bringing me hope and the direction that things are going is making me very, very happy.

Then there’s John Winchester. A lot of people seem to hate John and claim that he was a bad father, but John was always doing the very best that he could do and he loved no one more than his sons. He wasn’t the best father in the world, but the fact that he tried is what makes me love him so much. Many fathers don’t even do that.

The worst part is, I had always thought that John’s loyalty to family, him drilling that same loyalty and family responsibility into his children… I thought that was because his own father had taught him the same. Then we met Henry and I realized that it was just the opposite. John was so dedicated to his family, because he was striving to be the father he never had.

And it’s not just the Winchesters that have managed to wrap themselves up into my heart. From the moment he was introduced I was in love with Castiel and he only became a more and more compelling and relatable character as the show moved forward.

The thing about Cas that I love so much is the fact that I relate to him so well. I mean, I can find things that remind me of myself in the other characters, but with Cas his struggle with faith, both in himself and in God, was very similar to my own struggles with faith and religion. Something just… clicked with Cas. There isn’t a character on the show I’m more willing to forgive for any wrongdoing than Cas.

I’ve been angry with Sam and Dean for months at a time, but I can’t really ever seem to be too mad at Cas, even whenever he didn’t listen to Dean or when he nearly got them all killed… I just wanted to hug him and tell him it would be okay, but I couldn’t make myself be angry at him.

So… maybe it does sound a little strange to say that I get angry at fictional characters, or that I cry when they’re hurt, or that whenever things are looking up for them I smile, but these characters are so real that I cannot help it. I connect with them, I love them, I hate them and I want them to win and be happy. They’re very real to me. That’s why this show means so much to me. That’s why I care.

I want to talk a little bit about season eight… Specifically, I want to talk about the fact that Sam didn’t look for Dean and Cas after they vanished.

Now, I know that the writers and producers are saying that this makes sense because Sam has lost everyone he cares about and has no one to turn to, but I’m sorry, I just don’t think this fits with the character of Sam Winchester. Sam might not have anywhere to turn, he might be “Well and truly on [his] own,” as Crowley says at the end of season seven… but Sam tore the earth apart and tracked down demons in his desperation to get Dean out of Hell, so excuse me for doubting he’d just drop everything and run.

I get it, this time is different. This time, there is no Bobby, there is no Ellen or Jo or even Rufus Turner. Sam literally has no one and nothing to really go on to find his brother. However, when Dean was dragged to Hell, Sam eventually figured out that it was pointless to try and get him out and turned his attention toward revenge. He ignored Bobby for months and was on his own apart from Ruby.

Sure, I’m absolutely positive Sam has learned his lesson about revenge and wouldn’t have turned his grief into an excuse to hunt down the rest of the Leviathans or Crowley, but apparently, Sam even skipped the part where he tried to find Dean and was surprised Dean had been in freaking Purgatory for the entire goddamn year.

Sam’s smart, we’ve all seen the proof of that, so I’m pretty sure Sam would’ve been able to put two and two together to get four. He would’ve known that when Dick died, he went to Purgatory and since Dean and Cas vanished after that and Crowley told him the God weapon had a “kick”, Sam could’ve logically concluded that Dean and Cas had been pulled into Purgatory with Dick. That would’ve given him somewhere to start looking.

Of course, as we know, getting into Purgatory is damn near impossible and extremely dangerous and since Bobby’s dead and so is everyone else Sam ever turned to for help, Sam would’ve been stuck. But I’m sure he would’ve spent a few months – or a month at the very least – trying to find some way into Purgatory to get Dean and Cas… Then, coming up empty, he would’ve turned his attention to finding Kevin.

Let’s not forget that Kevin was a 17-18 year old kid whose life has been turned upside down. He’s been kidnapped by Leviathan and now Crowley and Sam wouldn’t have left the kid high and dry, no matter what was going on in his life. At the very least, he would’ve realized that Crowley having a Prophet was very, very bad indeed. The Sam I know would’ve put in his best efforts to find the kid and save him.

So, sorry, Supernatural, but until you give me a better explanation for why Sam just stopped… I’m forced to make up my own and here is what I believe is a passable excuse for what REALLY happened during Sam’s year with Dean gone.

After Dean and Cas vanished, Sam was panicked and alone and had no one to turn to. He was overwhelmed and didn’t know where to start. The first few days – a week, maybe – he was probably just running without thinking, drifting. But, given that Sam is not, in fact, an idiot, he would’ve eventually snapped out of it and begun the task of figuring out what the hell happened when Dean and Cas killed Dick.

This would lead to him piecing together that they were most likely trapped in Purgatory. Again, since he was alone, he would’ve done as much research as possible to try and find a way to pull them out. Given how very little anyone knows about Purgatory, he would’ve come up empty.

It could be argued that Sam would then try talking to demons, but I’m positive Sam has learned his lesson about demons and deals just as well as he learned his lesson about revenge. It doesn’t end well, don’t even bother. He may have tried to find someone FROM Purgatory to help him, like the Alpha Vamp, perhaps. That would’ve been his last resort and probably would’ve proven unfruitful. Sam couldn’t have taken him on alone and would most likely have come away empty handed and injured…

At that point, he would’ve realized it was a dead end and there was no way he was getting Dean back. Which would then lead to it finally sinking in that he really was on his own and there was really no hope left in finding his big brother.

After that, Sam wouldn’t have been sure what to do or where to turn. I’d say, between desperately hunting for a way to get to Dean, he’d also been trying to find Kevin since Crowley kidnapped the kid. Which would then lead to Sam tracking down demons, demanding answers. In the state he would’ve been in, alone, broken and desperate, the demons would probably have gotten the upper-hand easily…

In fact, it’s entirely possible that Sam found Crowley, only it was after Kevin had escaped and Sam came away from that encounter lucky to be alive and realizing that Kevin was, at least at the moment, not in danger from Crowley if he had managed to get away and keep himself hidden.

Which would be when Sam, confused, broken and utterly alone in the world, would’ve hit that dog, which would lead to him meeting Amelia and… I dunno, maybe he saw something in Amelia. At that point, Sam knew it was useless. He knew it was over and this life was going to kill him if he didn’t stop. Keep in mind, this would be MONTHS after Dean vanished.

Having the dog would’ve been the first spark of anything truly happy Sam had had in a long time, then he meets Amelia again and for the first time in a long time he feels like smiling and is actually maybe feeling happy. This would be the turning point where Sam decides that it is definitely time to stop. He wants his life back and so he grabs hold of that little bit of happiness and doesn’t want to let it go.

Granted, this would require Amelia to be a far more likeable character than she is, but I suppose she could still the annoying Mary-Sue if Sam was that desperate for some semblance of happiness (and as I’ve said before, perhaps there was just something about her that reminded him of Jessica and so he latched onto that idea. I still maintain that his entire relationship with Amelia was the hollow fantasy of lonely, desperate man.)

That, my friends, is far more believable (to me) than Sam just dropping everything and quitting right then and there. Because I’d like to think I know Sam Winchester very well and it’s just not very much like Sam to give up without even trying.

Character: Henry Winchester

First Appearance: S8E12, “As Time Goes By”

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I don’t think I should have to say it, but here it is: SPOILERS for Supernatural Season 8, Episode 12 “As Time Goes By”

There, now that you have been sufficiently warned… Let’s talk about Henry Winchester.

 

I knew I was going to love Henry based on the sheer fact that he was John’s father. I was thrilled to be learning more about John’s past, since all we’ve ever really heard is that he was a Marine who fought in Vietnam. I’ve always been curious about John’s family, since we know Mary’s family was all dead, I wondered if Sam and Dean knew about their dad’s family, and now we know.

It took five minutes, that was it. Five minutes and my heart melted for Henry Winchester. There is just something about Winchester men that makes them totally irresistible and wonderful on an epic scale.

I gotta say, the episode wasn’t what I expected. I heard they were doing time travel again (something I always love) and assumed angels must’ve been involved (angels, or the Doctor, but I didn’t get my hopes up there..) so whenever we started out in 1958 and it turns out that Henry is the one doing the traveling through time… Well, I was surprised.

I just have to ask though… is there just some rule that says the Winchesters can never be happy? That their lives just have to be awful? Really, I’m seriously. Let’s just take a look at all the Winchester men.

First, there’s John. He thought his father abandoned him when he was just a child, the woman he loved was brutally killed by a demon and he spent upwards of a hundred years in Hell being tortured. Now he’s God knows where, doing God knows what and he’ll never know what really happened to his father.

Then, we have Sam and Dean and I really don’t think I could ever accurately sum up the awfulness that is their lives.

And then Adam Milligan, the Winchester everyone forgets for some reason that pisses me off. Adam never did anything to deserve his fate, being trapped in Lucifer’s Cage with Michael and Lucifer, being two pissed off archangels’ punching bag for… lemme think… nearly 500 years now. The poor kid has to be mush at this point.

And now we have Henry, the man who travelled through time to stop a demon who killed his friends, who accidentally abandoned his son and never got the chance to know him and then who died because of the demon that fucked up his whole life.

Yeah, the Winchesters are cursed and the writers of Supernatural are doing this on purpose. They’re giving us these brilliant characters to fall in love with, just so they can take them from us.

Henry was such a brilliant character. I loved that he was a “Man of Letters” and the way he regarded hunters and his sheer horror at the fact that John had become a hunter, along with John’s kids… It was so sad and sweet.

I think my heart broke to pieces whenever Dean told Henry about what John’s life had been, and watching Henry read through John’s journal just about killed me, it was so… Oh, there just isn’t a word for it. When Henry realized he wasn’t going to make it back, that he wasn’t going to be able to raise his son… The tears were burning my eyes! It was so… heart-wrenching.

I didn’t expect Henry to die either… I knew he wasn’t going to make it back, of course. I’ve watched enough Doctor Who to know how time travel works. But I didn’t expect that sacrifice at the end. I gotta say, I was surprised at how calm Dean seemed… I get it, he hardly knew Henry and his last grandfather wasn’t exactly a great man.

Of course, I wasn’t surprised Henry would give his life for them… Winchesters just have that annoying habit of doing those self-sacrificing things. It’s why I love them, and hate them.

Henry was… is adorable the right word for it? For a grown man… Yeah, adorable seems like the right word. Funnily enough, I was reminded of Captain America. There was something very Steve Rogers-ish about Henry. I can’t quite put my finger on it, but my heart was his and I just spent most of the episode wanting to hug the guy and make it better.

Seeing Sam and Dean standing over his grave, Dean remarking about how their family tree was “a whole lot of dead” was just… heartbreaking. Honestly, the entire episode was heartbreaking and awful.

All I could think of was the fact that John will never know how much his father loved him, how much he wished he’d been there for him… The entire thing just had me in tears. These time travel episodes are never anything but angst and pain and a bunch of impossible situations that they just can’t fix.

It was only one episode, and my heart is aching for Henry and I already miss him. I’ve been crying since season two that I want John to come back, and now I’m crying that I want Henry back as well. This show will undoubtably be the death of me…