Posts Tagged ‘Season 8’

Oh wow, look at that! I’m not dead. I’m really sorry for the extreme gap between posts. I haven’t been able to actually get on WordPress outside of a mobile device lately because my personal laptop is on the fritz. *sigh* That, and life is hectic. I just started a new semester (only one more to go!) and I’ve been writing (both fanfics and original work) and reading a LOT. Not to mention I started sporking City of Fallen Angels by Cassandra Clare last month on my FB and slogging through Jace’s bullshit is actually becoming painful.

But anyway. I actually have access to a computer (in campus computer lab) and I’m going to actually give you guys a post for a change! I know, I know. Shocking.

So today’s topic of discussion: Dean’s sexuality.

For the record, I personally believe that Dean Winchester is bisexual. Please note that I do not believe this simply because I’m an avid slash fan or a very proud Destiel shipper. I love Dean and Cas as friends and frankly, though I enjoy entertaining the thought that they’d have sexually romantic relationship, I’m not going to delude myself into thinking either of them would actually do that. That doesn’t change my thoughts on Dean’s sexuality, however. And I’m going to tell you why.

Many people who don’t believe that Dean is gay or bisexual cite Dean’s womanizing ways as proof of his heterosexuality. I’m going to use it for my own argument though.

Dean was raised in a very masculine environment, trained to do the things “real men” should do. John was a very strict military man and while he wasn’t in the marine corps. when Dean was growing up, he still held those ideals and convictions. I doubt Dean would ever feel comfortable admitting to himself, let alone his father, that he found men attractive. And so of course he would try to compensate for that, telling himself that of course he isn’t gay because he clearly likes women. It became a way for Dean to push down those others thoughts and feelings.

If you’ve noticed, in the earlier seasons Dean was very self-conscious and a lot of his self-worth was tied into what his father thought of him. He wouldn’t want to do anything to jeopardize his image in John’s eyes. He flirted with women, he had lots of random, casual sex with women and rarely had any fulfilling, committed relationships with women.

Dean hated himself. Let’s not argue about that, because it’s canon. He truly felt unworthy, unwanted or downright useless at times and there was a point where he believed he deserved to go to Hell. Questioning his sexuality, among the angst of trying to find himself outside of his father’s ideas, certainly would have added to that.

And since Dean’s return from Hell he’s expressed more romantic inclinations – like his relationship with Lisa. I personally think that Dean wanted that relationship to work more than anything. He put effort into it like he never really had in a romantic relationship and was content for a while, until it fell apart.

As the seasons have gone by and Dean’s learned to accept himself – though, clearly he still has some issues with his self-worth – he’s become more open. In the early years when someone suggested he was gay, Dean would make a smartass retort, turn it into a joke or balk at it disbelieving and wonder how they could think such a thing.

Now, as we saw in “Everybody Hates Hitler”, he is more awkward and sort of dorky as he tries to work his way through the situation of being flirted with by another man. He doesn’t make flippant remarks, immediately deny the accuse of him being gay. Instead, he acts very much like he does when he is flirting seriously. The way he acted with Aaron was very reminiscent of the way he acted around Cassie (season 1, “Route 666”) and Lisa throughout the early episodes of their relationship (mostly in season 3).

It feels very much like Dean is gradually beginning to come into himself. He has stopped seeing himself in terms of what his father (or Sam or Bobby or anyone else) would see him and has started to see himself just as who he is and who he wants to be. He’s happier with himself than he’s ever been – in spite of his belief that he is merely a “grunt”, he seems to have a healthier opinion of himself as a whole.

I could be reading more into this than is really there, but I truly hope that they continue to explore this side of Dean and his newfound confidence in himself. Even if it doesn’t lead to him coming to terms with his sexuality they way I believe he should, I do hope they’ll at least explore Dean’s self-worth and growing confidence in the coming season. It would certainly be an interesting arc.

We haven’t really gone too deep into Dean’s own personal feels in the last couple of seasons and nothing much about his self-worth (at least not at any great length) since season 3. I’d like for them to do that in season nine. Actually, I’d like to see more of that for Sam, Dean and Cas. Season eight did a wonderful job of setting up some very intriguing arcs for all of the characters and I hope that they don’t drop the ball on exploring them once season nine gets here.

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Character: Amelia Richardson

First Episode: 8×01, “We Need to Talk About Kevin”

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I admit it, I am totally biased when it comes to which characters in Supernatural I love and which characters I loathe. Amelia Richardson is one of those characters that I absolutely detest. Before you make any assumptions, let me just say a few things… I have been accused of disliking Amelia on the basis that she is Sam’s love interest. That is not the case. In fact, to date I haven’t had a single problem with any of Sam’s love interests aside from her.

Admittedly, I am extremely jealous of those women, but they were all interesting characters, even if (as with Ruby) they were also evil, lying demons. It is not the fact that she is Sam’s “girlfriend” (and I use the term loosely) that I object to. It is the fact that she is a washed out, cardboard cut-out of a character and she gets more and more annoying by the episode.

I’d also like to say, it is not the actress I have a problem with, it is the character. Most of the things I don’t like about Amelia can be boiled down to poor writing. The rest, is the extreme lack of chemistry between her and Jared.

I went into season eight a bit wary, but completely open minded. I did not hate Amelia right off the bat. We saw very little of her in “We Need to Talk About Kevin” so I didn’t get a real feel for her character, but she seemed at least vaguely interesting and not like a total bitch or even worse, a “damsel in distress” kinda deal. She seemed independent enough and able to speak for herself.

But then we just kept getting bludgeoned with the fact that she was so amazing and Sam loves her so damn much and blah fucking blah. Seriously, I was sick to death of the flashbacks. In the case of Dean and his stint in Purgatory, at least they made sense. He’d been through a huge deal and had just escaped freaking Purgatory and lost his best friend along the way. Sam, on the other hand… he hit a dog and met some annoying vet chick. He sure as hell has no reason to be having flashbacks.

I tried, I really did, to not hate this woman before we’d even really met her in the present time. But then we got to “Hunter Heroici” and all hope of me liking her was shot to hell. The Amelia flashbacks in that episode felt forced and totally out of place. I was annoyed at the way they pulled away from the actual story at hand and the only thing they did for me was convince of me that either Amelia is not real or the writers just had no other idea of how to get this story across to us.

What we know about Amelia is kind of hard to make her likable in any case. First, her husband, Don, was killed in action in Afghanistan (at least, I think it was Afghanistan. To be honest, I sort of zone out whenever she speaks). I understand that losing her husband must’ve been hard on her and she probably wanted to rebuild her life and had no idea where to start and it would be difficult and confusing.

But what Amelia did was move away from her old town, found some town in Texas (I’m assuming it’s Kermit, Texas seeing as that’s where she is now) and stayed in a motel for weeks, even after getting a job. Even Sam, who had literally lost EVERYONE he cared about (and apparently suffered some sort of personality overhaul that allowed him to not bother looking for said people) thought that was a little weird.

This chick was so scared of the commitment of property ownership she didn’t bother even renting an apartment, and instead just stayed at the motel which allowed her to run into Sam again. Their conversations feel stilted and painful and there is absolutely no chemistry between them at all. I wouldn’t know they were supposed to be in love if Sam hadn’t told us so…

Then they buy a HOUSE together. Seriously? Actually, no, Sam did it by himself. Amelia was apparently “busy”. This is only reinforcing my whole “Amelia is a delusion” theory. Her dad drops by and apparently he was in the Army. He is a strange combination of Dean and John. Only furthering my desperate hopes…

Amelia gets a phone call and Don’s not dead! Gasp!

This isn’t believable at all and her reaction is just… terrible. I’m sure she’d be freaked, yes, and the situation with Sam complicates everything, but you’d think if she gave a damn about Don she wouldn’t have looked so horrified and depressed at the news that her dead husband is inexplicably not dead. She just… No.

And it only gets worse because Sam decides to “do the right thing” and leave. Telling me all I need to know. He doesn’t really love her, because he didn’t even look that broken up about leaving and I personally believe that he was just with Amelia and rushed the entire relationship because he was desperately trying to recreate the relationship he had with Jessica. Amelia seems pretty callous about the whole thing and doesn’t really seem to care about her husband very much at all.

So, we fast-forward to “Citizen Fang” and just when I was hoping we’d one day get a flashback of Amelia dying an awful, awful death we get to finally meet this woman in the present time. She’s even worse than the flashbacks led me to believe.

Dean, in a desperate attempt to keep Sam and the nutbag Martin from killing Benny, sends Sam a phantom text from Amelia saying she’s in trouble. Yeah, that was a dick move and I was a bit disappointed, but at the same time… Sam seriously just bailed in the middle of a hunt and left a crazy person alone to hunt a vampire. Even given that Sam believed Benny was killing people, it seems like you wouldn’t want to leave the guy who was just released from a mental hospital alone to fight the vampire.

He drives all the way to Texas (from Louisiana) and sneaks up to Amelia’s place. He spots her and Don all happy and cozy on the couch and, realizing she’s fine, goes to a bar. He finds out what really happened from Dean. Just when I’m hoping this business with Amelia is over, she shows up. Fuck my life.

Apparently, she saw SOMEONE (remember, she said she didn’t know who) peeping through the window and HOPED it was Sam. So instead of telling her husband that there was a random dude creeping outside of the house, she just waits until she has a free moment and bails, heading for the bar in hopes of seeing her ex-lover there. Wow, does she love her husband or what, guys?

Once she confirmed that it was indeed Sam, she runs out of the bar because heaven forbid her husband realizes where she went. She had to get home because he was leaving for a business trip and she had to help him pack. I’m not kidding, but I wish I was.

She only shows up at Sam’s hotel (meaning she freaking tracked him down, which is disturbing) AFTER her husband is gone. That pretty much tells me she only came there to do one thing and it sure as hell wasn’t to talk. They talk a little, but mostly she’s stepping closer to him, talking about how she misses him and blah, blah, blah.

Sam backs away and tries to keep distance between them, clearly not wanting to make things more complicated, but she keeps annoying me by finishing his sentences and making me want to punch her. Of course, they sleep together. Could that scene have ended any other way?

(In my head, it ended with Sam stabbing her in the throat with the demon killing knife because, seriously, that’s the only logical ending!)

The next morning she blames Sam for the whole having sex together thing. Sorry, Amy, but unless he raped you, that took two people and you were the one coming onto him. Don’t blame him because you couldn’t control yourself. (Although, in fairness to Amelia, I’d have a hard time controlling myself in the presence of Sam Winchester too…) Then she gives him a speech about how he can’t be here and not here and how if he stays she’ll totally leave her husband for him, but if he goes she’ll just move on.

Wow, I am feeling the love. She must care a lot about her husband. Look, I get it. She “loves” Sam. (Yeah, no, not feeling the love, but it’s obvious that it’s SUPPOSED to be romance). However, even if Sam leaves, I’d say it’s only fair to Don if she divorces him because clearly, she doesn’t love him anymore. If she ever did, which I find doubtful ‘cos I’m not sure she’s capable of “love” or any other human emotion.

Anyway, after her big proposal (which boils down to: stay with me, or don’t ever come back), Sam says it’s a lot to think about. Which it is. Amelia looks less concerned and I’m sure she’s already made her mind up. She’s gonna ditch her husband for Sammy.

They agree that they’ll meet back at the hotel room in two days and if they’re both there, or only one of them is there they’ll know. The words “we’ll know” are repeated by Amelia so many times I wanted to hurl something at my computer screen. (And as another note, if she ever appears in another scene wearing only one of Sam’s shirts I will vomit)

So, of course, at the end of the episode they try to trick me into thinking Sam *might* go to be with Amelia, but I know Sam better than that. He might be stupid enough to care about this woman, but he’s not gonna ditch Dean in favor of a life with her, which was, at best, a hollow fantasy based on his dreams of his former life with Jess. But guess who DOES show up? Oh yes, Amelia shows up and finds the hotel room empty.

I wish I could say I felt bad when she looked so disappointed, but I feel that her disappointment was less that she didn’t get to live her life with Sam and more she didn’t get to carry out the ritualistic sacrifice she intended to do whenever she got there. I was just laughing in triumph because Sam didn’t let me down this time, he made the right decision and ditched her ass. I so hope we don’t see her again, but I’m pretty sure we will.

My only hope is that when we do, it is either confirmed that she is all a delusion because Sammy is just completely batshit (and that is a valid theory still given that Sam is the only character outside of her father and husband to ever interact with or even meet Amelia) OR Amelia is somehow working for Crowley and is tied into some bigger conspiracy that we don’t know about yet. Her being a legitimate love interest is simply out of the question…