Archive for the ‘Characters I Love’ Category

After last Wednesday’s episode (Clip Show, 8×22) I got to thinking about Sam and Dean and Cas and Dean and Cas and Sam and their relationships and the way that they relate to each other.

I’ve always thought Sam was more forgiving to Cas because, well, he gets it. And I’ve noticed some interesting parallels in their character arcs, but that last episode really made me look at them a bit closer.

Cas and Sam have both been through very similar situations.

Sam trusted a demon (Ruby), wrongly, to help him kill Lilith. While Ruby did, ultimately, help Sam kill Lilith, killing Lilith set about a whole, horrible aftermath (Lucifer’s Cage was opened) and Dean placed the blame almost entirely on Sam for betraying him by trusting Ruby. Sam, being Sam, felt horribly guilty and eventually made the ultimate sacrifice to right his wrong, by jumping into the Cage with Lucifer to put a stop to Armageddon. He was (or at least his soul was) in Hell for a year and a half earth-time, 180 years Hell-time.

Now, let’s look at Cas:

Cas trusted a demon (Crowley), wrongly, to help him open Purgatory. While Crowley did help Cas open Purgatory, opening Purgatory set about a whole, horribly aftermath (the Leviathan were released into the world) and Dean placed the blame almost entirely on Cas for betraying him by trusting Crowley. Cas, being Cas, felt horribly guilty and eventually made the ultimate sacrifice to right his wrong, by taking on Sam’s insanity and brokenness, driving himself insane to save Sam from certain death. He later ends up sucked into Purgatory for a year because he helped Sam and Dean stop Dick Roman (the head of the Leviathan).

When I put it like that, it’s almost impossible not to see why Sam relates so strongly to Cas and why he defends him every single time Cas makes a (completely honest) mistake.

Let’s go a bit deeper though.

What were their motives for trusting Ruby and Crowley? What were their intentions?

Well, Sam wanted to kill Lilith, an evil demon who not only dragged Dean into Hell, but who was actively breaking seals to open Lucifer’s Cage. Sam had no way of knowing Lilith was the final seal. His intentions remained, always, in the right.

Cas made his deal with Crowley because Raphael was waging war in Heaven and he was losing. If Raphael won, he would open the Cage, once more releasing Lucifer and starting the Apocalypse all over again. He needed the souls in Purgatory to give him enough power to defeat Raphael. He had no way of knowing that opening Purgatory would unleash the Leviathan.

Even more interesting, think about this: Pride comes before the fall.

Sam was, near the end of season four and his time with Ruby, addicted to demon’s blood and the power it gave him. He felt invincible, powerful. Stronger than Dean and capable of doing anything. He didn’t only want to kill Lilith – he wanted to show Dean that he was not weak. He wanted to prove something to himself and to Dean. He thought he didn’t need Dean, he thought he didn’t need help and he wanted to do it on his own. He became, basically, prideful, self-righteous and power-hungry. It all culminated in the fight between Sam and Dean and Sam actually having demon-black eyes as he killed Lilith and let the demon’s blood consume him.

Cas was, near the end of season six and his deal with Crowley, becoming just as self-righteous, if not more. He wanted to defeat Raphael, not just to stop Armageddon from happening again but also to prove that he was strong enough to lead the Heavenly Host. He was prideful, he was power-hungry and he let that power go to his head, which resulting in the terrifying God!Cas.

And there are even more parallels in their story lines, involving Dean’s reaction this time.

Dean was adamantly against Sam trusting Ruby. It was a bad idea and he knew it and he was entirely unhappy with it. He felt betrayed and he was angry. However, in the following season, Dean works with Crowley to stop Lucifer in spite of Sam insisting that doing was exactly like what he did with Ruby. You cannot trust demons, according to Dean. Not unless he decides it’s okay.

Dean was vehemently against Cas working with Crowley in season six, going so far as to basically disown Cas for doing so and seeing his involvement and lies as the ultimate betrayal. He was pissed and angry and pretty much told Cas he never wanted to see him again. However, the following season, when they were trying to deal with God!Cas, he is the one who suggested that they go to Crowley for help, which was exactly what he disowned Cas for! Again, it’s only okay to trust demons when Dean says so.

Both Sam and Cas have consistently made mistakes for all the right reasons. They were trying to stop powerful demons or powerful angels from unleashing Hell on earth. They were trying to do the right thing. They were trying to protect the people they care about. They fully took responsibility for their actions and sacrificed themselves as penance for their mistakes.

My point is, they’re very, very similar characters. Which is why, whenever Dean was acting like a total dick to Cas Wednesday night, Sam jumped to defend him.

Sam’s always seem the shades of grey in the world. He wants to see the good in everyone, especially someone like Cas who really was only doing the right thing. Sam, unlike Dean, will take into consideration the motivations and intentions behind someone’s actions.

Dean sees betrayal as betrayal. Everything is black and white. Monsters are evil and deserve to die. People who lie to him, hurt him or don’t trust him when he thinks he should be trusted are simply wrong. He adopted that view from John. John raised them to see the world that way, but Sam, in his stubborn need to not be like John, chose to see it different, while Dean, in his desperate need for John’s approval, chose to see it exactly like that.

I’ve noticed, over the seasons, that they’ve both reached a more middle ground. Sam’s less trusting and less optimistic and, especially lately, Dean’s become more willing to accept the shades of grey he usually refuses to see.

But when it comes to family and friends, he’s still stubborn because family means so much and loyalty means so much that every betrayal hurts. It leaves scars and Dean already has such a low opinion of himself that each breach of trust just cracks his sheild even more. So he reacts viscerally, with anger and violence and unbending stubbornness. And Sam, who’s been where Cas is and sees things from his point of view, reacts with understanding, compassion and open-mindedness.

I just hope Dean’s progress on the road to being more open-minded will continue, because this time I really feel his anger isn’t all the justified. He was so cold to Cas and Cas is trying so hard to do the right thing and to make it up to Dean… I know as a viewer I have a more objective eye on the characters’ motivations and actions, but really, Dean knows about Naomi so I don’t get why he was so angry at Cas. I really want him to lay off the poor guy a bit because Cas doesn’t deserve this and, much as I love Dean, no one really ever calls him out on his hypocrisy and bad attitude.

…So, somehow this post became really analytical feeling. *shrugs* Oh well. The point is, I get why Sam is always defending Cas, I get why Dean gets so angry and I get why Cas does what he does the way he does it.

And also… I am terrified of next Wednesday’s episode. *grabs tissues* I am not going to come out it in one piece.

First, let’s all have a moment of silence to remember those we lost in the Battle of Hogwarts, fifteen years ago today. *wipes away tears*

.

.

.

*sharply inhales*

*clears throat*

*taps microphone*

Alright. Ahem. And now, let’s get on with the post. Everybody, I’d like you all to turn your attention to the man of hour: SAM WINCHESTER!

600full-jared-padalecki

Just look at that gorgeous face! *swoon*

Anyway. Sam Winchester was born 30 years ago today on May 2, 1983! This is a big birthday for the younger half of our favorite duo of badass brothers! So what can we possibly do to celebrate such a momentous occasion?

Well… I have a few ideas…

Ah... Just how I like him: angry and restrained. ;)

Ah… Just how I like him: angry and restrained. 😉

Ah… hmm… *clears throat* But let’s save those plans for later. When we’re alone, huh, Sammy?

Aw, I’m sure we all remember what an adorable little baby Sam was! Why, I remember it as if it were yesterday…

6705_557862797560150_1293031388_n

Literally the most adorable thing I’ve seen all day…

Aww! Look at how cute he is! :3 So adorable!

And of course, that adorable little baby (and his cutie pie older brother, of course) grew up to be a badass hero and we all thank him immensely for, ya know, saving our pathetic asses and giving his own life to stop Lucifer.

We all love Sam for his heart and his brilliant mind and his ability to see (or at least, attempt to see) the good in almost everyone. Even the monsters he and Dean hunt. We love him for being intelligent and thoughtful and stubborn and sometimes just a bit stupid, too, because no matter what we know he’s got Dean’s back.

So happy birthday, Sammy! I love you, we all love you and you’re totally awesome, so don’t forget that.

thCALUS4TI

Now c’mere and let me give you your present…

Who else is excited about the new “Supernatural” tonight? I know I am, even though I’m 98.99% certain that it will leave me a sobbing, broken mess. So, before I’m reduced to a puddle of incoherent fangirl feels, I figure now’s as good a time as any to do some ranting…

Right now, I want to talk about Adam Milligan.

I seem to keep having this conversation with friends and other people online and we all seem to agree: We want Adam Milligan rescued. Or at least a damn attempt to be made, ya know?

It’s bad enough the poor kid got suckered into being an archangel’s vessel and shoved into Hell through absolutely no fault of his own, but it’s even worse because it seems like Sam and Dean have completely forgotten they even have a half-brother trapped in the fiery depths of Lucifer’s Cage being tortured for centuries.

Come on, guys, when’s the last time Adam was even mentioned? “Appointment in Samarra”? In season SIX? The first half of season six?

Guys, we’re at the end of season eight now. Adam’s been trapped in Hell for more than three centuries Hell-time. I’d the math, but it’s math so… No. For Adam, I’ll actually do the damn math.

He got sucked into Hell in season 5, right? And one month on earth is the equivalent of a decade Hell-time, right? Okay.

It’s been three goddamn years. Technically, five considering that there was a year between season 5 and 6 and another year between season 7 and 8 which means somewhere there are two years unaccounted for but it’s somehow still 2013 so just go with it guys. We’ll say three years since the writer’s fucked up the timeline and I’ll be lenient for now.

In less than two weeks, it’ll be exactly three years since “Swan Song” aired anyway so let’s go with it.

Three years times 12 months is 36 months. Since a month is ten years, that’s 36 times 10 which is 360.

THREE HUNDRED AND SIXTY GODDAMN YEARS, PEOPLE.

How long is Adam going to have to waste away in that pit being tortured by two pissed off archangels? WHY HAVEN’T SAM AND DEAN EVEN MENTIONED HIM IN TWO YEARS?

Jesus, guys, Sam and Dean are supposed to be heroes and yet they totally abandoned their little brother and haven’t even made a single attempt to free him aside from Dean’s half-hearted request to Death. And even that felt like Adam was a total afterthought. Like “Yeah, so, you go in and save Sam. Oh, I also have this other brother… Adam. Could you save him too if you don’t mind? No. Well, fine, just save Sam then, I didn’t really like Adam all that much anyway.”

Seriously.

I mean, sure, Dean’s single-minded sometimes and Sam is definitely more important to him than Adam, but even SAM didn’t ask about Adam after he got his soul back. He KNEW Adam got sucked down into that Cage with him and didn’t mention him ONE GODDAMN TIME.

Not even after the wall broke and he remembered Hell did he mention Adam. Think about it: Sam had to have seen Adam being tortured too, or at least knew that he was suffering just like he was. But he never expresses any guilt about the fact that he got saved and Adam didn’t even though Adam is clearly the more innocent of the two.

I love Sam, guys, but, come on, you know Sam deserved Hell more than Adam did. And Sam clearly thought he deserved Hell because that’s why he agreed to jump into the Cage in the first damn place. But did that make him feel bad whenever he realized Adam was STILL trapped down there? Hell no!

I have to admit, while I adore Bobby and I’m thrilled that he got to come back in “Taxi Driver”, I was a bit pissed that once again there was not a single mention of Adam. They had to save an innocent soul from Hell and it never once occurred to them that the innocent soul could’ve been Adam? Not once? Not even a passing mention of “Hey, remember that half-brother we totally screwed over?” Nothing?

Damn it.

At this point, that’s all I’m really asking for. Just a mention of Adam. Just an attempt to save him. Anything at all to show that Sam and Dean actually care about the poor kid that was yanked into something he had no clue about and has suffered centuries of Hell with Lucifer himself. I just want to know they haven’t totally forgotten he exists and is suffering brutally for no damn reason.

Honestly, though, I secretly kind of hope Adam does get free. And that his first order of business is try and kill his asshole half-brothers who left him to rot in Hell. They deserve it.

I love you, Adam! Even if Sam and Dean don't.

I love you, Adam! Even if Sam and Dean don’t.
*picture drawn by ~16AngelWing16 on deviantart*

We first met you way back in season one, and everyone knew you were one of the bad guys…

SPN121_Demon_Meg

You were the smartass, super-awesome villain who nearly got Sam and Dean killed and we were all a bit relieved whenever they finally exorcised you.

We all remember when you clawed your way out of Hell to get revenge on the Winchesters and possessed poor Sammy to do it…

49641_1202067181595_full

Secretly, we all kind of loved that, even if we pretended to be upset about it.

We remember you coming back again in season 5, in a brand-new body, but the same snarky-smartass awesomeness that we’d come to expect from the previous years of your work…

????????????

We remember you disappearing for a while after Lucifer was shoved back into his Cage, but then you showed up again, running from Crowley and needing help. We remember you turning to the Winchesters because you had no other choice and we certainly remember that kiss with Castiel before you fought of Hellhounds to give Sam and Dean more time…

tumblr_ls5zzlYtNY1qgps28o1_500

We remember you helping take care of Cas while he was broken and even helping Sam and Dean fight off the Leviathans…

supernatural-season-7-finale-dick-roman-meg

Not that you got any thanks for that.

And we’ll always remember when Crowley’s demons came and took you away. We didn’t get any explanations and for the longest time, we thought you were dead.

Now, we remember that you suffered a year of torture and still held out because you’re just that awesome.

full

We remember you having a truly honest conversation with Cas about your feelings, of all things. We remember you actually caring about what was going on with Sam and Dean.

We remember you fighting off Crowley so that they could escape with the tablet and hopefully bring down the King of Hell…

Goodbye Stranger

And we will always remember you, Meg. Even though we never learned your real name, we will never forget the way you changed, the things you did and the awesome, smartass demon that you were. You were proof that not ever demon is evil and we will remember.

First off, that opening sequence made me nearly scream out loud. All those dead Deans everywhere… And Cas killing him. It nearly ripped my freaking heart out. I just… Oh my gawd, there were literally THOUSANDS of dead Deans just… just lying there and Cas had killed them ALL. He was like a freaking terminator. It was like soulless Sam only, much much worse.

And things only got even worse whenever Sam and Dean met up with Cas and he was all… not-Cas. I hate watching Cas act like not-Cas and I want to kill Naomi. Brutally. With a chainsaw. And boiling acid. Plus maybe a kraken and I’ll need a light saber and I’d love the practice the Cruciatus curse on her. And maybe hit her with Thor’s hammer and use Captain America’s sheild to bash her ribcage in. Point is, I hate her. A lot.

And of course Dean finally realizes there is something wrong with Sam and finds the bloody napkin. I knew he wasn’t going to take long to figure it out and I’m still pissed at Sam for hiding it, but more importantly, what Cas said is freaking me out. “Damaged in ways even I can’t heal” What? WHAT? *eye twitch*

I’m so glad that Dean finally noticed, and I’m still a bit pissed off at Sam for not telling Dean. I kinda wanted to punch him when he was all “I’m totally fine” Yeah, sure you are Sam. People cough up blood constantly because they’re totally healthy. STOP LYING. Damn it, Sam, you’re not an idiot. Dean’s not an idiot. You should’ve realized you couldn’t hide that from him.

And Meg! Meg!! I was so freaking happy to see Meg again and I wanted to hug her and she was there and it was wonderful. Much as I love her, I hated her flirting with Cas because… dang it, Meg, get your own angel, Dean’s already laid claim to Cas! I mean, her talk with Cas was awesome and I loved her flirting, but… Cas flirting back was just… no. Sorry, but I couldn’t help but scream “STOP BLOWING HOLES IN MY SHIP!” Heh.

Ahem. Anyway. Meg’s little heart-to-heart with Sam was adorable and sweet and I was actually loving it. It’s nice to see the almost human side of Meg. Then she compared Amelia to a fucking unicorn and I wanted to scream. AMELIA IS NOT SOME FUCKING SPECIAL, WONDERFUL WOMAN. SAM QUIT HUNTING YEARS AGO AND WAS IN LOVE WITH JESSICA!! AMELIA ISN’T THE FIRST CHICK! Hell, Dean quit hunting when he was with Lisa. She’s not fucking special, SPN writers, stop trying to make me think so. Don’t ever mention her again or I’ll break something.

*deep breath* Anyway.

I gotta admit, I loved Crowley being pissed about Sam killing the Hellhound. Though I totally expected him to be more pissed, I guess he was more preoccupied with the Angel tablet and everything. Still. That part made me grin a bit. I’ve got a weird fascination with Hellhounds and kinda cried a little whenever Sam had to kill Crowley’s Hellhound. I knew Crowley wouldn’t take that well…

I think the scene with Cas nearly killing Dean broke me a little. Or a lot. I was screaming at the TV. I wanted Cas to kill that fucking bitch. Why the hell isn’t Naomi dead. Why does she exist? How does she know Crowley? WHAT THE HELL IS SHE DOING AND WHAT DID SHE DO TO CAS? CAN WE PLEASE KILL HER ALREADY???

Crowley showing up surprised me. Meg facing him and letting Sam get Dean and escape surprised me… Cas vanishing with the tablet shocked the hell out of me.

Crowley killing Meg broke my already shattered soul.

C-Can I please pretend that part didn’t happen? I mean… maybe… maybe she’s okay. Maybe she was just faking dead. Maybe…maybe … *sobs*

Fucking Supernatural. How dare you bring back the awesomeness that is Meg and KILL HER? Bastards. I mean, not that I wanted Crowley to die, but COME ON. Meg can’t be dead. That didn’t happen. She’s okay. She has to be okay. Please let her be okay.

*sobbing pathetically*

I hate this show. Goddamn it.

My little sister asked me, after I had finished the episode and was screaming about the pain, why I don’t just stop watching it.

I don’t have a real answer. Other than the fact that I’m a sick, sick person and I’m apparently a masochist. There is no other reason for me to put myself through this. Goddamn it, SPN, you’re not even pretending anymore are you? You’re just determined to kill me, aren’t you? WE WON’T TAKE THIS ANYMORE. STOP IT. STOP.

Who the hell am I kidding. SPN fans are hooked. We’ll come back for more pain every time. We’re screwed up like that. It’s an abusive relationship…

Character: Henry Winchester

First Appearance: S8E12, “As Time Goes By”

supernaturaltimegoesbymckinney_620_013013

I don’t think I should have to say it, but here it is: SPOILERS for Supernatural Season 8, Episode 12 “As Time Goes By”

There, now that you have been sufficiently warned… Let’s talk about Henry Winchester.

 

I knew I was going to love Henry based on the sheer fact that he was John’s father. I was thrilled to be learning more about John’s past, since all we’ve ever really heard is that he was a Marine who fought in Vietnam. I’ve always been curious about John’s family, since we know Mary’s family was all dead, I wondered if Sam and Dean knew about their dad’s family, and now we know.

It took five minutes, that was it. Five minutes and my heart melted for Henry Winchester. There is just something about Winchester men that makes them totally irresistible and wonderful on an epic scale.

I gotta say, the episode wasn’t what I expected. I heard they were doing time travel again (something I always love) and assumed angels must’ve been involved (angels, or the Doctor, but I didn’t get my hopes up there..) so whenever we started out in 1958 and it turns out that Henry is the one doing the traveling through time… Well, I was surprised.

I just have to ask though… is there just some rule that says the Winchesters can never be happy? That their lives just have to be awful? Really, I’m seriously. Let’s just take a look at all the Winchester men.

First, there’s John. He thought his father abandoned him when he was just a child, the woman he loved was brutally killed by a demon and he spent upwards of a hundred years in Hell being tortured. Now he’s God knows where, doing God knows what and he’ll never know what really happened to his father.

Then, we have Sam and Dean and I really don’t think I could ever accurately sum up the awfulness that is their lives.

And then Adam Milligan, the Winchester everyone forgets for some reason that pisses me off. Adam never did anything to deserve his fate, being trapped in Lucifer’s Cage with Michael and Lucifer, being two pissed off archangels’ punching bag for… lemme think… nearly 500 years now. The poor kid has to be mush at this point.

And now we have Henry, the man who travelled through time to stop a demon who killed his friends, who accidentally abandoned his son and never got the chance to know him and then who died because of the demon that fucked up his whole life.

Yeah, the Winchesters are cursed and the writers of Supernatural are doing this on purpose. They’re giving us these brilliant characters to fall in love with, just so they can take them from us.

Henry was such a brilliant character. I loved that he was a “Man of Letters” and the way he regarded hunters and his sheer horror at the fact that John had become a hunter, along with John’s kids… It was so sad and sweet.

I think my heart broke to pieces whenever Dean told Henry about what John’s life had been, and watching Henry read through John’s journal just about killed me, it was so… Oh, there just isn’t a word for it. When Henry realized he wasn’t going to make it back, that he wasn’t going to be able to raise his son… The tears were burning my eyes! It was so… heart-wrenching.

I didn’t expect Henry to die either… I knew he wasn’t going to make it back, of course. I’ve watched enough Doctor Who to know how time travel works. But I didn’t expect that sacrifice at the end. I gotta say, I was surprised at how calm Dean seemed… I get it, he hardly knew Henry and his last grandfather wasn’t exactly a great man.

Of course, I wasn’t surprised Henry would give his life for them… Winchesters just have that annoying habit of doing those self-sacrificing things. It’s why I love them, and hate them.

Henry was… is adorable the right word for it? For a grown man… Yeah, adorable seems like the right word. Funnily enough, I was reminded of Captain America. There was something very Steve Rogers-ish about Henry. I can’t quite put my finger on it, but my heart was his and I just spent most of the episode wanting to hug the guy and make it better.

Seeing Sam and Dean standing over his grave, Dean remarking about how their family tree was “a whole lot of dead” was just… heartbreaking. Honestly, the entire episode was heartbreaking and awful.

All I could think of was the fact that John will never know how much his father loved him, how much he wished he’d been there for him… The entire thing just had me in tears. These time travel episodes are never anything but angst and pain and a bunch of impossible situations that they just can’t fix.

It was only one episode, and my heart is aching for Henry and I already miss him. I’ve been crying since season two that I want John to come back, and now I’m crying that I want Henry back as well. This show will undoubtably be the death of me…